The familiar feeling of pain and confusion returns

Ok…will write up a catch up entry soon..but just to cut a long story short: am happy with H, mother is still fucking around the mess and untidyness in the house, Orihime is doing myears in, and I got a knowledge fang taken out

H also had a pain in her jaw but that got sorted out now. Anyway today we met up for evensong meal, talked about the future and a possible settling down in Oneppon, played Tekken, then went to eat frozen cream…..

.and then BLAM!! I got shot!

“Let’s  take a break”

Because she needs to focus on archives she is willing to give us up for the time being. How hard is it going to beeeeeeeeeeeee?

The familiar feeling of pain and confusion returns. Hello old friend.

 Why the fuck am I so sad? It’s just temporary..but..i reckon it’s cos I’m afraid.

Afraid of being alone again.

Afraid of letting my Rakuga bust out.

Afraid of messing with someone else.

Afraid of falling into the darkness of the summer past again.

Afraid..of the heartache and the pain..

The week will be long………………………………