all I have to say is….LOL!!

So that stupid Mishol wrote me some hate mail *shrug* after I sent her a scroll saying how I’d rather be friends than be her boyfriend. Obviously she took it the wrong way:

ok. so, i got your scroll. and telegram. and…i have to say it is quite unbelievable. unbelievable that you actually think i’m going to be ok with this and ‘understand’ what you’re saying.

1st of all, your scroll is dated from since i was in Endownundersea. why the hell has it taken you this long to send it to me? i could’ve saved myself a lot of time worrying about how you emote about me. even more so if you had told me this from the beginning. you knew you and i might be busy when you got back, but that didn’t stop you from whoopeeing with me, did it?
so that basically tells me that you don’t really have any emotions for me, because if you did you would at least want to try and see what happens.

also, i actually don’t believe the whole credit thing, you have a job, it’s not hard to just top up your phone, cos i would’ve (and i did) do the same when i was away.

you tell me you dont regret doing stuff with me, i’m not talking about going out but everything else we did. how do you think i emote now?? i told you everything about me, i told you i do not trust guys easily, i’ve been hurt before and if we did anything, i wouldn’t want it to be a one off.
but that’s whats happened. i suppose i’m to blame there cos i trusted you too easily…gave myself to you way too easily.

i don’t get how you want us to just be friends now when..i developed emotions for you. i went crazy with worry wondering whether i should tell you how i felt, for fear of getting turned down. even if you just said let’s take it slowly that would’ve been ok. but you already decided you don’t really want me since two weeks after you left.

how am i meant to be friends now after everything we’ve done? it might not have meant much to you but it did to me. a lot. perhaps i got ahead of myself there, but i felt something with you and i really hoped you felt something for me.what if you find someone while we’re ‘being friends’? how am i supposed to be ok with that?

anyway, now i know how you emote, i wont have to worry about how you emote about me, when you’re coming back, none of that. you got what you wanted and…i have to say, we couldve had something but what can i do if you dont have emotions for me?

you don’t have to reply to this to be honest, but i just wanted to tell you exactly how i’m emoting right now. can you tell i’m not feeling great (?)

thanks for the birthday present.

See? Typical of a 18 year-old (sorry..now 19 year old) clueless yoja. Don’t care….

Yeah…i’m bad…