i am the biggest.loser.ever

so, i officially have NOTHING to do on new year’s eve.  how pathetic is that?

i can’t even go to holly’s because fucking pat is apparently bringing his new girlfriend.  maybe i’ll get lucky and holly will tell him he can’t bring her.

fuck pat.  fuck his girlfriend.  fuck everything.  fuck me for wasting 3 years of my life with him.

i’m on the verge of tears right now because i’m having trouble fathoming what a fucking loser i’ve become.