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🙂 Hello ladies and gents!

Today is friday…thank heavens. I’m sooooooo beyond exhausted. This week has seriously taken alot out of me. I’ve been feeling really off all week. Sleeping in, finding it hard to get out of bed. Its just not like me. And I want to go to bed the second I get home at night, no matter what. I have been forcing myself to stay up. I do stay in my room though, because my roommate is really getting to me lately. Not Robbin, but Patrick. He is reeeeeealllly getting to me. I will go into it further, later. But suffice it to say, I dunno how much longer I can take it. I left my animals all in my room today….even Titus….I’m tired of dealing with it.
 
I am finding it really hard dealing with money lately…or the lack of it. My cell phone bill is out of control…and I don’t have any minutes…so I can’t even USE it. I just can’t afford it anymore. My phone doesn’t work properly for texting either…I  need a new phone…and I can’t even get one. I want to switch carriers, but I can’t because of Rai’s phone. I need ot save money. $130-140 is absolutely ridiculous to have as a cell phone bill. Its putting me back in debt, a place I promised myself I would never get to again. I am paying it late every month, and always seem to have a balance of some sort. I wanted to get her phone switched off my account, but then she made me feel guilty for wanting to do whats good and right for me. My life is never going to be able to be about me. My WHOLE life, its always been about what I can do for other people, which is how I got into the messes I have gotten in. For the first time in my entire life, I am wanting to do whats best for me….and I can’t. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. I can’t ever do anything for me. And I need to, because this stress will kill me. Its Christmas time, and I have bought one gift so far. I cannot afford more yet. I have picked out a few….but cannot buy them. So I got a second job yesterday. Its an event by event basis, but I will be working for a caterer. Its only $9/hr. .I feel like I am selling myself CHEAP!!!!!! But its worth it. She has me booked for my first event already, and she wants to keep the same staff for all events, so I have a future with this company. She was very impressed with me, and it won’t keep me busy constantly, which is nice. This is the busy time of year for catering, so yay me! I also got anew babysitting job, tho this one has not been finalized yet. I still have to meet her and the kids, and make sure it works for both of us. That one is just for occasional nights out. She has three kids…the youngest is two, oldest is 10. I’ve also been asked back for a second interview for a night/weekend position at a daycare. Its in East Chicago, so I hesitate…cuz its pretty far. But the pay is good, and the hours are fairly consistant. She wants me to call her back today, so I am just waiting a little bit. I have to decide if I truly want to do this…its alot to committ to. I already complain I am not home enough…this will REALLY be a stretch. But the hours are like 10pm-something every evening..and all day on the weekends, depending on the parents schedule. This is why I don’t understand people who have been out of work for ages. If I need a job, I can usually get hired for 10 of them. I have no shortage of people wanting me to work for them, because I am trustworthy, and consistant. People like me. 🙂 I was also offered a bouncer position, but I turned that down, when they told me they would supply me with my own German Shepard. Umm…noo..need something a little tamer than that. SCARY STUFF!!! I can afford to be picky right now..so picky I shall be!!! I just need a little extra cash, I am not afraid to work for it!!!

I just called the daycare lady back….lets see what she says. I need to arrange our next interview. She seems like such a sweet lady. Ohh and when i have them, the kids should be asleep!! Wheee, maybe I too can nap. lmao
 
I am sooo bored today…no work to do here at work. Anyone wants to talk to me, my aim name is vinaraba
and my yahoo im name is also vinaraba.
 
Talk to ya soon!!

Kristin