9/17/08

My Family!

I’m so busy today, yet here I am again, writing in here. Its nice that I am able to write again. My head has been so clogged with thought lately, that words haven’t flowed. Its the house I think, thats when writing just stopped being easy….part of that is also because of so much massive change. I really hate change, and the loss of my routine is something to be seriously missed. I’m starting up new routines though, and its getting easier. To begin with, I wake up at 5:30am, and stay in bed til 6 some days….other days I just get up at 5:30. I grab waterbottles from the rats and a waterbottle I keep in my room for Jakey and Titus’s water. I also grab my towel and shower tote. I grab Titus, take him outside to potty, and fill up waterbottles at the kitchen sink. I go take my shower, go upstaires. Give Jakey and the rats and the bird and titus all food and water, so I have happy creatures, then I get dressed for the day. Sometimes I have time to lotion and laze around, sometimes not, then I go take Titus for a nice long walk. We get our excersize, I diaper him, then go. I will usually stop at the gas station for half gallon of oj, and sometimes a cheap ass breakfast sandwich. Sometimes I just go straight to work. Depends on how money is sitting. I’m hardcore broke ass right now.

Then I get to work, do my day…I leave later and later every day….
I’m getting quite alot of overtime….
 
Then I go home, usually dropping by moms for a little bit each day….sometimes she has food leftover from dinner that I get to eat. (YUM) Sometimes we just talk and hang, til its time for me to go home. I go home, take care of Titus, and we all hole up in my bedroom til Robin and the girls come home. The SECOND they walk in the house, before they even go to their room, they knock on my door, and ask to play with the animals. Cora loves Titus and Jakey, and Abby loves Alfie and the ratties. Titus is actually loved by all, but Cora and he have a special bond lol The girls want to take him Trick or Treating this year. LOL I think that will be adorable, and he would love it. Titus just LOVES those girls. He has been afraid of little kids before, my goddaughter being one of them, and he would get snappy and shake…..but not with these girls. They could prolly football him across the room, and he would take it. Maybe its cuz he realizes they live there?? But he is so great, it makes me happy.
 
The girls hang with me til its time for them to go to bed, and then my night is my own. I hang with the animals, clean cages, play online, or read.
 
Cora and Abby love my "petting zoo" as they call it. Last night, Cora wasn’t home….not sure where she went, so it was just Abby, and I was laying on my bed watching the Cheeta girls movie, and Abby looks at me and says "YOU WATCH CHEETA GIRLS?????" and that was it, I had a friend for life. (Abby is the little one) she tormented my animals for a bit, then jumped on the bed and watched the movie with me. Then she noticed my laptop, and wanted to play…so I set her up on Disney.com and she had a blast. When her mom called her for bed, she didn’t want to go, and cried and I just laughed. Kids never want to leave me. I’m the fun girl. Living with kids is so much fun. I’m so glad I finally get a taste of it. Even if I never have any of my own, I’m finally getting a taste of the family life. And I love it. Robin is fantastic. She is sooooo definitely somebody I would be friends with had I just met her on the street.
 
I’m still lonely, but my life is not that bad. I’m just not where I want to be in life right now. I should already be married with kids on the way. I’m nowhere near that goal! 🙂 But thats ok. There is always tomorrow…and the next day…and the next day. One day at a time, someday I will wake up, and realize I am exactly where I’m meant to be. Perhaps there is a reason I’ve never been graced with what I have wanted my whole life. Perhaps I’m meant to be a part of many many other families, so thats why I’m not being given my own. To keep me open to spoil the crap out other peoples kids and husbands and wives. 🙂 I love people. I love spending time with people. I love going places, and doing things. I get tired of sitting at home, alone, looking at my 4 walls. As lovely of walls as they are, sometimes I just want to share my time with other people. My girlfriend already has a life and family, she’s not available to do these things with me. It seems like the friends that are available can’t get to me, and nobody else is interested. And as I sit here and write this, Sara calls me and asks me to go out to eat with her tonight. It seriously seems that everytime I say something, something else happens to contradict what I just said!!! Ohh maybe Sara will go to Aldi with me tonight too…I gotta buy me some groceries. I need my canned goods so I can eat off 20 cents a day lol
 
Anyway, time to go home. See ya all laterz !!

Kristin

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