Summary Of 2009

I just spent some time looking over all my entries from this year.  And damn, there weren’t a lot of them!  I gotta get on here and write more.  Of course, I did use my hand-written journal a lot this year.

God, what can I say?  It’s the last day of 2009, I should be at work, but unfortunately I woke up around six-thirty this morning with a God-awful stomach flu.  I hate it.  Yeah, I’ve thrown up twice.  Luckily, the second time was around eight in the morning and while my stomach’s felt queasy since then, I’ve basically been okay.  I’m debating showing up for the last hour of work, but I don’t know.  I’m probably better off just beating this thing here.

I don’t really know what to say right now.  I was looking over the past entries for some kind of inspiration for . . . I guess what I’ve learned this year?  Where I’ve come from since December 31st of 2008?  I don’t know.

I have come forward in some ways.  Especially in terms of things with Drew.  I’ve learned how to be part of a couple, but retain the essence that makes me who I am.

I’ve moved out of my parents’ house and am sharing an apartment with the man I love.

In a time when so many people are out of work and can’t find anything available, I have a full-time job with paid benefits.  I may complain about the job from time to time, and I definitely don’t want to do this the rest of my life, but for right now, it’s okay.  It pays the bills and if I budget right, I’ll be able to save as well.  I need to work on the budgeting correctly, though.

I’ve got a family who, while they can drive me up the wall, they care about my well-being and want to see me happy.  I’ve got a good group of friends who, while I may not see a lot of them in person, are still there for me.

I’ve got a boyfriend who is, though he doesn’t see this about himself, an amazing man.  I trust him, I love him, and as of right now, I see myself spending the rest of my life with him.  The greatest thing is what he told me on December 28th.  He texts me and says, (directly typed from his text, bad spelling and all,) "I have offically decided to quick smoking I am smoking my last one now"  Then a second one that says, "I will be a little bit cranky for a while till my body clears it self of the chemicals from smoking"

I basically just wrote back, "Honestly,congratulations.  I’m glad you decided this."  And I said something about how I’d try not to be cranky back, because while I don’t understand it, I do know he’s going through something hard.

Not much else has been said about it, though he is being a bit more no-touchy than usual.  In all honesty, though, if the result is that he stops smoking for good, I can deal with this whole no-touchy thing for awhile.  I haven’t smelled any evidence of smoke on him in days.  I’m so proud of him for making this decision.    The way I see it is simple: I never doubted he could kick this habit if he wanted to.  When he decides to do something and really puts his mind to it, nothing can stop him.  Nothing will stop him.

All in all, 2009 was a good year.  It passed by so quickly, it seems.  I’ve trimmed away people I don’t need, kept/gotten closer to the ones I truly value, I’ve had to learn sometimes hard lessons by being on the other side of things this time around, but it’s made me a stronger person, and I’m truly happy with where I am in life right now.

Here’s to all the memories in 2009 and to many more to make in 2010.