The End Is Near? I Can Only Hope . . .

In my last faves only entry, I wrote what I had sent to Denise.  Well, here’s the response I got that I just read tonight.

Kate,
First off, I did try to contact you, I called your house and talked to your parents…asking them for your cell number which is no longer is service. Also I asked that you call me back. which you haven’t. And then, I said screw it. I don’t want to start any of this shit again, and I want nothing to do with you or the issue so I dropped it. Qui is a good friend and she is "badgering you" out of concern for me. I didn’t ask her to do it and quite frankly she doesn’t have to. I would appreciate if you took it off your journal.
Whether or not you do, that’s your own choice. I can’t make you do anything. But realize one thing, when writing about someone…and personal issues such as mine…a real writer would know to contact the person it involves first for permission…or they would merely  change the name.
 
Good Luck with whatever you do! I don’t need this drama.
Denise

And you don’t want me fighting any battles with you. trust me. at the moment I just don’t care. but don’t think I can’t take care of my battles, because that is where you are dead wrong. And this isn’t a battle,  but you’re making it one.

And here’s the response that I gave her.

Denise,
    I was told that you called.  Once.  Whether you tried again and I just didn’t receive a message, I don’t know.  I never received a phone number to contact you with.  Frankly, I’m glad that you wanted to drop it.  I never blamed you for Jacqui harassing me.  I do know that that’s her own immature little choice, but as I said, if you were hating it as much as she claimed, you should have said something to me directly.  And while Mike and I may not be speaking anymore, he still knows my E-mail information, so you could have simply E-mailed me.
    Regardless, thank you for realizing what Jacqui seems unable to.  That what goes onto my journal is my choice.
    Just for the record, no, I’m not making this into a battle.  Jacqui did when she couldn’t accept my answer that what I put on my open diary is my choice.  After she pestered a friend of mine about getting my screen name, I decided I was sick of it and decided to come straight to the source.  Honestly, since neither one of us want/need drama right now, I’d say we’re done.
    But it seems to me that if she had any real consideration for you, she wouldn’t have gone on and done this "for you," when you said ‘screw this.’
Kate.

I swear, that thing about "you don’t want me fighting any battles with you" was that supposed to be scary?  Threatening?  Please.  I’m gonna be out of here in a little more than a month.  So what can you possibly do to me?  Ooo, don’t mess with Denise, maybe she’ll have her father come after me!

I’m done with the whole thing.  I swear, I can’t believe the kind of double standards I have to put up with.  Because if I was Denise, if our places were reversed, and I was upset/mad about something someone had written about me, I guarantee you that A) no one would have spoken up about it.  And B) even if someone did, everyone would be mad at me saying that I was ‘involving people unnecessarily.’

Yet, as the situation stands now, if I was still talking with any of them, if I tried to talk about this, they’d just see it as something else to peg me with blame.  Any way that they could look at it, I would be in the wrong.  Yet if I was in a different part of the situation, they’d still find a way to make me at fault.

I’m sick of it.  I wonder, though.  Who’s next?

One thing that I was saying when Mike and I were going back and forth when we were up in Cranford and it was supposed to be the whole thing between Rob and Mike but wasn’t, was that I wished that instead of sending Mike as a messenger, that everyone had had the decency to say something to me themselves.  And Mike said something about, ‘it’s not a matter of decency.’  That ‘what, would I rather everyone come up and tell me what their problem with me is one at a time, over who knows how long, instead of hearing it at one time, from one person?’  And I said yes! because at least that way, I’d be hearing it from the source, instead of the sources’ little messenger.

Not to mention one other thing that doesn’t make sense, except to prove what utter cowards all of them are.  He claimed that he volunteered telling me, and that Shannon and the rest of them encouraged him because it meant ‘standing up to me,’ apparently.  Yet, if they so hated what I did to him and all that, why would they willingly send him into what they perceived as the firing range?

Cowards.  Every single one of them.  Yet I can’t help wondering now if this is their way of confronting me themselves.  And if that’s the case, I can’t help wondering who’s next.