Apparently, I’m A Good “Mellon” — 800th Entry!!!

Listen To Your Heart

I know there’s something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You’ve built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he’s calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there’s nothing else you can do.
I don’t know where you’re going
and I don’t know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he’s calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there’s nothing else you can do.
I don’t know where you’re going
and I don’t know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can’t find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that’s been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he’s calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there’s nothing else you can do.
I don’t know where you’re going
and I don’t know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don’t know where you’re going
and I don’t know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

 

"It’s a riddle.  ‘Speak "friend" and enter.’  What’s the elvish word for friend?"

"Mellon."

Lol.  I did show Rob Fellowship sometime last week and that part where they’re in front of the Mines of Moria and Frodo and Gandalf have the above exchange, Rob looks at me and says, "Melon?  That’s the elf word for friend?"  I said yeah, and he said, "So  I could say that you’re a good melon."

Lol.  I’d forgotten about it, but then last night when we were on the phone, he mentioned it and we started laughing and I said I had to write about it.  So I did.  There. 

In other news, last night, I wanted to go for a walk, but didn’t completely wanna go by myself, so I pulled Mke outside with me.  We walked to Sycamore, up the black hill behind the school, and then back to the house.  He was kind of annoying me most of the time, but I don’t know.  I guess I’m getting more used to it.  It was so weird.  I think it was some point . . .  It was the night he went to go see Rocky Horror.  Or maybe another point . . .  I don’t know.  In any case, he reminded me of how he was my senior year, before we got together.  When it was just Kate and her best friend, Mike.  Before anything else got between us.  And I liked that.  It felt good.  And it’s nice to actually know and believe that he’s over me because now I don’t mind if he leans on me or hugs me or whatever, because I know and believe he’s not doing it with the even sub-conscious intent of just being able to touch me.

Anyway.  So like I said, we went on a walk.  I was fairly sure Rob wouldn’t call, I figured we’d just see one another on Wednesday, and I didn’t want to call him and possibly bother him.  Well, when we came back in the door, my mom comes to the top of the laundry room stairs and says, "I knew you shouldn’t’ve gone."

"Why?  He called?"

She held up her index and middle fingers and said, "Not two minutes after you left, the phone rang."

I started laughing, basically unable to believe my luck, and she gave me the piece of paper with his house number on it.  I figured I’d try his cell first, just in case, but I got his voicemail, so I hung up and called the house line.  He answered and we had a laugh about his timing.  Then, we were talking, me being in the kitchen for a bit while I made tea, then I switched to the phone in my parents’ room.  And that was when I asked him about something he’d said when I was downstairs.  He said that he’d called to make sure I was okay.  When I was alone in y parents’ room, I asked why he wanted to make sure I was okay and he said something like, "Well, I wanted to make sure you weren’t, you know, crying yourself to sleep last night or something."  Then he said he’d probably seen too many movies where that happened.  But honestly, I just found it so sweet that he cared about making sure I was all right.

I did tell him that yeah, I’d been a bit hurt, I went on a self-pity bend, but it wasn’t a reaction I was foreign to, and that after said self-pity bend, I was okay.  And I believe I told him I was glad that he’d just been honest with me about it.  Besides, we’re still friends.  I haven’t lost anything because we were never officially together.

It was just so adorable of him to worry about me like that. 

Lol.  It’s so weird . . .  I can’t even entirely define what I feel for him.  All I can describe is that it’s this . . . inherent close-ness and comfort.

Anyway.  When we were talking last night, I’d said at one point that if he ever needed a ride home, he could give me a call and I’d do it.  Well, tonight I wanted to go for a walk, but I figured my luck, two minutes after I left, he’d call, so I told my mom I was bringing my cell with me and if he called the house, to tell him to call my cell.  I wandered around Sycamore for a while, singing "As Long As You’re Mine" from Wicked on the way there.  And that was when it hit me.  It’s been extremely cold the past few days.  What if the lake at Holmdel Park is frozen enough to skate on???  So I’m gonna go check that out tomorrow, if I can.  Like I said, I wandered around Sycamore for

a bit, then I was gonna head back down Galewood, but decided nah, I’d walk down Sycamore.  I’m about a third of the way down Sycamore when suddenly I realize my cell is ringing.  I reached into my pocket, open it up, and of course, the name I expected is there.  Rob’s.  I answer and we said hi, and I asked what was up.  He said he had the feeling I was out walking and figured he should call my cell.  Then he asked if I could come and pick him up.  So I said to give me a little bit, I was walking back to the house now.  Well, we got off after I told him I could be there in about five-ten minutes and I started running.

I got back to the house and grabbed my keys after making sure my dad would move their car.  He did and I took off for Staples.  When I got there, he came out and got in the car, and that was when I saw the good sized snow mound over near one of the light posts.  I said I wanted to climb it.  He said why not? and I figured what the heck, I’m gonna do it.  So I pulled around closer to the thing and he offered his gloves.  (The pair I got him.  )  I accepted them, grabbed my coat from the backseat where I’d shrugged it off earlier, and got out.  I scaled the thing fairly quickly, despite my legs sinking repeatedly, and I stood at the top.  Lol.  I looked down at the car when I got up there and saw Rob just shake his head at me.  Then I looked over the other side of the mound, wondering what the most fun way of getting off the thing was.  I figured it would be fun to just fling myself off the other side of it, so that’s what I did.  I pretty much rolled down the opposite side and disappeared from Rob’s sight.  Lol.  He thought I’d just fallen and was about to get out and see if I was okay when I walked out from behind it.  He’d actually unbuckled to get out and make sure I was okay.

Anyway, I got back in the car, proclaiming that that had been fun, and started driving out of the parking lot.  I figured I was just taking him straight back to his house, but then he made a comment about wanting to get food.  I asked if he wanted to go to Burger King and he agreed.  So I turned around and we went there, then back to my house where we ended up watching Awakenings, whcih is a really good movie with Robin Williams and Robert DeNiro.  Anyone who hasn’t seen this movie, I highly recommend it.  It definitely shows how good of an actor both Robin Williams and Robert DeNiro are.

Rob had gotten a Sprite at Burger King, (which I actually think is still in the dining room,) and he was saying he didn’t know why he’d gotten it, it was just making him cold.  We had our usual couch positions, me on the left, him o the right, smiley blanket over us both, but I felt him shiver at one point, so I took his left arm, put it around my shoulders and leaned against him, entwining my fingers with his.  His hand really was freezing!  But he stopped shivering not too long after and eventually his hand warmed up.

After the movie, I drove him home and he showed me where Cheesequake Park is.  So I was happy.  I finally know how to find the place . . . I think.  I’ll have to go there again in daylight to really make sure I know it.

I dropped him off and we hugged, as usual, and I said I’d pick him up tomorrow night, too, if he wanted.  (Before we left the house, he’d said something about tomorrow night and I asked, "Is that a hint you want me t pick you up tomorrow night, too?"  I don’t mind, though.)  So yeah, I said I’d see him then and we said goodnight.

As I was leaving, I heard Listen to Your Heart, too.  I love that song.

So yeah.  This is my 800th entry.  Go me!!!  (I can’t believe I’ve written this many . . .)