Washing Away The Sugarcoat

Ever since Nana died, I’ve been thinking about how I react to things.  And I’ve decided something.  I’m sick of sugarcoating things.  I want to be brutually honest with people.  Because you know what?  We’re supposed to be adults here, if an adult can’t take honesty, then they have no business calling themselves an adult.

Now, no, I’m not gonna start verbally attcking people with the backlog of things I’ve been thinking for, (with some,) years on end.  But I am gonna take a more honest outlook with what I say/write to people.  Especially with Open Diary.  This is an open forum and what people write in their public entries is automatically up for people’s scrutiny.  And just like people have done with me and given me their opinions that I didn;t necessarily want/need, I’m gonna do the same thing.

You see, my entire life, I’ve been afraid to really voice my opinion because it either gets shot down, ridiculed, or something of that nature.  It got to the point where I couldn;t even say that something was the greatest movie, by my standards, because I’d get back, "No.  No way.  Absolutely not.  This one is.  [Insert movie title]"  And I wouldn;t be able to argue because whoever it was just wouldn;t listen, or would cut me off.

Well, you know what?  Yeah, I think the Lord of the Rings movies are the greatest to hit the screen since I don’t even know when.  I pity people who said they were boring.  (Though I won’t contest those who favored the books and thought the movies sucked compared to them.  That, I completely understand.)

But frankly, no, I don’t think Dogma, for instance, is such an incredible movie.  I thought it was downright bizarre and largely pointless.  It may have some interesting things to say about religion, but where this greatness lies, I’m not seeing.

I do acknowledge that, yeah, heck yeah, people are gonna think different things are great or bad or whatever.  I just wish that when I said that something was a favorite, it wasn’t immediately shot down for whatever the favorite of the one I’m talking to is.

But I digress.  Or I went off on a similar tangent, but now I’m back.  My point is, people have been giving me this unwanted/unneeded honesty my entire life.  Whether it was given to help, to hurt, or simply to be given, I’ve decided that I’m going to return the favor.  Not maliciously.  I’m just tired of feeling like I’m "not allowed" to speak my mind.  Becasue you know what?  I’ve got as much a right as anyone to speak about the things that maybe not concern me, but that I think about.

I accept that not everyone is going to like those things, but when/if I mention something that someone doesn’t like, all I ask is that they approach it in a mature manner.  I’m going to try to write about it in a mature manner, so I’m only asking for what I’m also giving.

For some, it’ll be extremely hard.  For others, I hope they’ll manage it.

As for me, I hope that I keep this resolution.  Because I truly am sick of sugarcoating.