Joey’s Orders

Well, I’ve been instructed, or should I say ordered?, to get over things with Jason.  Long story short, I’M WORKING ON IT, DANGIT!!!!!  Lol.  That entry of his was rather . . . shall we say, spirited?

Anyway, maybe because of everything connected to Jason, I have an idea for a new novel.  It’s definitely gonna be a shorter one, but as soon as I finish writing it, I’m gonna type it up and send it to publishers.  It’s darker than almost anything else I’ve written, I’ll say that much.  I seem to be taking a bend towards darker writings.  I don’t mind.  It’ll help me grow as a writer if I can do gothic kind of stories as well as the somewhat flowery Ivy novels.  Flowery by comparison, anyway, because Ivy does not have an easy time.

I have to admit, I’m a bit worried about the Ivy series after the fifth novel or so.  Because I’m writing my true opinions in there.  I’m writing down the only semi-fictionalized things that happened to me.  But the events aren’t what worries me.  It’s what everyone will think of what I thought of them.  What I said to myself about them.  This diary doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface of things.

Though I suppose I shouldn’t be that worried.  Yes, some things may sting if my friends read those books, whenever I get them done, but everything’s already in the past.  And by the time they come out, even more time will have elapsed.

This new novel, though . . .  I’m liking it, in a morbid sort of way.  I got one scene in my head and came up with the beginning and conculsion from there.  I’ve never done that with a novel before.  So I’m gonna type it up as soon as I can, and then it’s back to the draing board for me to sniff out possible publishers.

I think that’s something that so many people don’t take into account.  Thinking back on the things that I’ve said about different people, I could be called such a two-face.  Saying the things I have behind their backs and then talking to them now, after trust is regained, rebuilt, etc.  Yet the very fact that I did say it doesn’t mean that my feelings towards whoever now are insincere.  Lol, Melanie once called me “Mike’s beastly girlfriend,” but that doesn’t mean she sees me that way now.

I think the only true two-faced thing a person can do, (okay, this among other things,) is saying one thing behind a person’s back, and then treating them completely differently to their face.  It’s one reason I’ll never trust Dan again.  He’s pulled that one on me.  I’ve seen the things he wrote in his OD.  Yet, one especially angering entry was written within a few days of us meeting at Veteran’s Park.  Two-faced jackass…

Okay, I’m over it.  Largely, anyway.  I’m no longer angry when I think about it. but I still can’t believe . . .

Yeah.  Anyway.  I’m glad I didn’t fully lose the people, even though I lost the time.

::Sighs::  Yeah, I need new stuff to think about.

Oh, here’s something.  Guess who IMs me earlier, when I first got on?  Give you a hint: he told me to stop saying Yep, with no reason other than he didn’t like the word.

Yep, that’s right.  DorkAlert himself.  New screen name, cuz I still have his other one blocked.  I askedwhat did he want and he say back how do I know he wants something.  So I said because he’s IMing me under a new screen name for the first time in months.  Then he asks if I’m still mad about that.

I don’t know whether I am or not and I said that, and also that I was thinking about something unrelated and really didn’t want to talk.  Then I blocked that name.  I just don’t want to talk to him.  I mean, seriously, it was like talking to Mike, cubed.  The guy was as obsessed with stupid video games as Mike is, and that’s just about all he would talk about!  And I didn’t feel like saying, as I often do with Mike, “Good for you, I don’t care!”  I mean, yeah, I liked talking about Tetris and stuff, but there’s only so much I can take before I feel like screaming or ripping the person’s head off or something.  Okay, maybe not something that drastic, but still.

Anyway, yeah.  That’s my two cents for the night.  And looking over this entry, I really need suggestion on what to write about.  Give me topics, people!  Mudane, wacky, controversial, whatever.  Just throw topics at me, I’ll pick one, and I’ll write about it.  Anything you want, questions about my life, beliefs, thoughts, actions, questions about movies, books, trivia, etc. 

Okay, bye.