Still Job Hunting

My Mood:   — Feeling Blank

Anyway.  I went to the Park Place Diner and they took down my name, availability, experience, (if any,) and phone number.  Hopefully I’ll be called. The girl said they’re trying out new people, so if one of them doesn’t work out, they’ll probably call me.  ::crosses fingers::  I can hope.  The fact that I have no experience shouldn’t be held against me, cuz they said they’d train newbies.  So that’s good.

I’ve actually always wanted to do waitressing.  I love the idea of tips, and I think I could do a really good job.

I heard another little thing today at work.  I went in cuz I had to finish up putting the balloons in the bins and into the binders.  Then when I go in tomorrow morning, I’m gonna completely number all the balloons.  It’ll be completely done after that.  Anyway, though.  I guess the owner had said for this one woman to not come in yesterday, even though she wanted to.  I guesed that it was because he figured I’d be there the entire day, and also because he was coming in to see what I was doing.  Well, I guess it pissed her off that she lost a day or something and as I was walking to the back this morning, I heard her saying someting about me having two days off a week, and in general complaining.  I’m not exactly sure what she was saying, but even so.  It just strengthens my resolve to find something better and to get out of there.

Mike actually said today that ‘what if it was just a rumor?’  Well, even if it was, I don’t want to work in a place where rumors like that are going to go around.  And even if I would, I can’t work there forever.  We’re planning on moving out by the end of the year/start of next year and I can’t carry my weight when I’m making a six dollar salary at about twenty hours a week.  It just won’t work.

I’m worried about myself right now.  Yesterday, I barely ate anything. I had the remainder of that calzone from the pizza place and I drank Barq’s.  Today, I haven’t even had the Barq’s.  And I’m not hungry.  It scares me in a way.  All the talk and dealings I’ve had with eating disorders in the past few months, and here I am, doing this.  It’s only been not even two days, but still…

I’m not gonna fall into that pattern.  I’m just not.  I won’t let myself.  In fact, I should probably get off and go get something to eat.  I looked up the directions for that Asbury Park Press thing that gives ten bucks an hour.  It’s way down off Route 79, so I’m gonna go there after work on Monday.  That way, I can be sure they’re open.  I’m also gonna check out Domino’s, cuz they offer part/full time for drivers and give ten to fifteen an hour.  Twenty hours a week with pay like that, and that’ll be great.  I can hope.  Maybe I’ll stop by Domino’s today.

Yeah, I’m going mad with trying to find something.  It’s sad that I’m depressed over not finding someting in four days.  I mean, some people go months without finding a job.  I know I have.  But I don’t want to do that.  I want to find something and then be able to go back to the dollar store and say, "You know what?  I quit."  And when they ask why, cuz undoubtedly at least the one owner will, I’m gonna say it’s because of what I heard about people trying to get me and the other girl fired.  Or maybe I’ll just say me.  If the other person wants to say something, she can speak up on her own.  I don’t want to get her in any trouble, or get her fired before she finds someting else.

I think I’ll try to quit on a Wednesday.  Because that way they’ll have a day to figure out a change in people’s schedules since I always have Thursdays off.  Eiter Wednesday or Friday.  ::Shrugs::  If it’s possible, that’s what I’ll do.  If it’s not, then, oh well.  I’ll quit whenever I have to, as soon as I can.

Though I am tempted to see if I can keep the dollar store job at least two weeks into my new one, wherever and whatever it may be.  That way, if something doesn’t work out with the new one, I can go back to the dollar store until I find something else.

I’m curious to find out whether I’ll be on payroll this time.  I hope I’m not.  It’ll be a bit easier to quit then, because I know I’m not costing him more money.  If I’m not though, it’ll feed my suspicion that the whole thing isn’t a rumor, and make me all the more diligent in finding something new.

I hope the Park Place Diner pulls through.  I want to be called by them.  It’s close by, it’s waitressing, I can get tips, and waitressing is something I’ve wanted to do.

Wish me luck. 

I hope I’ll hear something soon.  I’m gonna give it a rest tomorrow since next to nothing is open on Sundays, and that way I can prepare another battle plan for if the Press doesn’t work out.

 <–Little worker Smiley.