Honesty

I guess it’s something that has been floating around in my head, especially over the last few conversations Dolly and I have had. Especially looking back, but even while it was happening, our friendship was never a completely honest one. There were always things that she kept from me, and that I kept from her. I honestly think it started on her side, but I’m not sure. All I know is that once realized that I felt like there were things that she was keeping from me, I felt like I should do the same, because why should I tell everything to someone who’s not doing me the same courtesy? (God, if I still had that mindset now . . .) Anyway. It’s different talking to her now, like I know I’ve stated. She’s different. And in one definite way, I hate that difference. She’s miserable concerning anything except Bobby. And it absolutely kills me that I can’t do anything from my current position in Nowheresville, New Jersey. I mean, I’m getting the sensation Melanie must have felt, knowing that something bad was going on with Kenny when he was still in New York, but she couldn’t do anything from here. But at least they were a six hour drive from one another, so in the case of an emergency, they could meet up. I have no idea how far away Texas is from here. Hey . . . wait a minute. Okay, brb.

Okay, okay, that’s really, really creepy!! I just went to mapquest to check out how far it would be, and I typed in the addresses, and get this!!! It estimated a twenty-six hour, thirty-nine minute drive! The 13 conspiracy lives on!!! Plus, it’s a little over 1700 miles. Yeesh. Frankly, yeah, I’m hoping she moves back up here, too. Heck, it’s too bad she can’t move up here and live with Nana. I think it would do both of them some good. Not o mention that when I get lost coming up there, Dolly could give directions. ::Thinks about her last entry:: Or maybe not . . .

Lol. I’ve found, though, as far as honesty goes, that no one is completely honest. No, I’m not saying that everyone always lies with everything that comes out of their mouth, but how often is someone completely, brutally honest? Human beings, or most of them, anyway, have compassion for those they care about, and therefore, automatically sugarcoat things to an extent. What that extent is depends on the person, but we all do it, because human emotions are fragile. They’re hurt and betrayed and trampled, very easily.

I’ve been forced to reckon with this site as an example of how honesty can screw someone over. I happened to randomly find a diary called Nornna2004, which has since been either deleted or suspended, I’m not sure. But this girl had over eight hundred entries, and she was a very personal writer. Yes, some of the things she talked about were not what others would want to read about in our “polite society,” but even so, it’s her diary, and she has to right to talk about it, correct? Not according to many other diarists. Because when she wrote something about seeing a baby boy changed, and the thought popped into her head of “grabbing his balls,” automatically, people get suspicious, and start insisting in notes on her diary that she’s a child molester. I will admit, Nornna does seem to have an unusual fascination with young children, and seeking out pictures of the kids of other diary members, but that does not give anyone else the right to threaten her, harass her, insist that she will harm children, and everything else that they’re doing. There was another diary, called StopNornna2004, that was asking for signed notes, for the sole purpose of getting Nornna’s diary deleted. That is not the purpose of this site! And frankly, it seems to me that everyone is missing one important thing. Yes, if Nornna actually does lust after/think about young children in that way, it is something that she should get behavioral therapy for, and isn’t something that is accepted as “normal” in this society. But for all those readers and mothers and other people out there, insisting that “she is an endangerment to my child,” or “I don’t feel safe online anymore,” frankly, it’s stupidity that you ever did feel safe. There are a lot of sick people out there who would just as soon steal your child and molest them as blink and nod hello. And who says that the person who will do that is online? It could be when you turn around at the supermarket. It could be when your child is playing in the park. It could be right from your own house. And instead of worrying about those things, about the people who can actually come into contact with your kids, you’re harassing to no end a perfect stranger, who just happens to like looking at pictures of kids, and says a few things that make you uncomfortable. ::Dripping sarcasm:: Yeah, delete her diary. Because that will surely put an end to all child molesters/abusers/kidnappers. Frankly, they’re all missing one important point. I know I’ve stated that three times, and have yet to say what the important point is, but here: Nornna has written these thoughts in her diary. You’ve all become so paranoid about it. But what harm has Nornna actually done to your children??? NOTHING!!! From what I can tell, all the mothers who have posted pictures of their kids, and had any problems with Nornna have children under the age of three, and unless you have a super intelligent baby, I doubt they’ll be using a computer by the age of three. You want feel safe on this online community, then exercise some caution, because when you post pictures of people other than yourself, you’re taking their life in your hands, and someone may come along one day who won’t state everything that they think about during the day. They’ll just come along, see the picture, decide, ‘hey, I want that,’ and take it. Whether “it” be your kid, or whatever.

I don’t know how many of the people from these hate-note circles will read this entry, but if you do, and you leave some sort of cursing-me-off note, or calling me sick or twisted, or whatever, as well, by all means, go ahead. But be warned. I will collect these notes, and report them to the Staff of Open Diary so your diaries get deleted. I know, that won’t stop you. You can create others. It is no great promise that I hold. But it is a promise. Start harassing me and I will see you deleted. I already did so for StopNornna2004.

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Whoa. That’s just…really gross, Katie. I think she should be alolowed her diary. Who knows…maybe writing about the compulsions (oh, Mother) keeps her from..er…acting on them. Oh, God. That’s friggin’ awful. I mean…jeez, that’s gross. Why do people post pics of their kids when you hear on the news everyday about child pornography/internet-kidnapping and rape stories…. [HyacatDuncan]
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…I mean…the greatest gift man(andwoman) kind has is a logical thinking brain! USE IT, FOLKS! Quit putting your kids out there and making them more accessible to psychos!!!!!! The world is unsafe and uncertain enough without having to “show off” the fruit of your wombs and have that result in their exposure to pedophiles (that the right word?). Jeez. Yeesh. Thanks Kate, great entry. Food [HyacatDuncan]
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for thought. Give what’s her name a place to vent her twisted desires a

nd MAYBE she’ll be less likely to act on them and stop giving her the eye candy to focus that sickness on. [HyacatDuncan]
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OMG, this is the first time ever READING this about my old diary! Hee, hee! hey, did you see my entry called “copywritted”? i know i put it under “no notes” but leave a comment from it where it would say “Signed notes” in an entry that you wish, ok? let me double make sure that “Copywrited” isn’t under Private first. [Nora’s Diary]
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do you care if i print that entry about what you said about my old diary for my mom to read when she gets done reading my entries? and yes… abou tthe picture thing … “someone taking it for to pretend it’s there child” i was thinking that recently , like last night. you read my mind. [Nora’s Diary]
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*about *their Sorry, typed too fast. :-p [Nora’s Diary]