Last Night I Said These Words . . .

Okay. The full story of last night. Well, Jason had said that he’d be on around ten, so I was waiting for him until around eleven, while listening to my Evanescence CD. Well, I was also looking at past entries in my diary, specifically some of the letters to Dolly that I’ve written in it. Well, My Immortal was playing, and I forget which line . . . . No, it was the “I tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone, but though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone all along.” I heard that, and I was reading the letter, and all of a sudden, I started breathing hard, and my heart was pounding, because this overwhelming feeling of, “I’m going to call her,” pounded through my head. So, I signed off, went up, trying to control my breathing, and looked up her phone number. I dialed, and her brother answered, and I asked if she was there, and he said yeah, and who was this, and I was so scared of saying my name, but I did. “It’s Kate,” though my voice was shaky. But he got her, and she got on the phone, saying, “Katie?” like she couldn’t believe it was me. I said yeah, and then, “Don’t hang up?” She said she wasn’t going to, and we talked, and laughed, and it felt like old times.

We have a lot to talk about, and a lot more to straighten out, but we’ve both grown up since last we talked, so I think we’ll be able to do it.

Oh, just a personal note for you, Dolly. I have no idea when you’ll read this entry, but I just want to say this: yeah, I’m stubborn, but I wouldn’t have ripped up or deleted a letter/E-mail of yours, or hung up on you. I was afraid that your stubbornness would have had the same result if I’d sent you something written, or called before last night. Heck, last night I was afraid you’d hang up on me. But, let’s work at fixing things, okay? I think, I hope, we can do it.

–Notes–

wow i absolutely love your diary! it looks so awesome. anyways, hope that things work out with you and the other person, sorry i don’t remember her name. anyways, take care *courtnie* [Spanky’s Popsicle]
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🙂 [Harlequinn’s_Tear]
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RYN: J Edwards 😀 [Quiet Observer]
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Ratie, I never cheated on Mike. The last I heard from him was in Sept. of that year and I went out with Jared in October. He’d already told me he wanted to see that Alyssa person and you told me Erica smooched him and he didn’t stop her. Oops, I heard from my mom who heard from your mom who heard from his mom that my Naked Jay Bird was a cumpulsive liar. ANd to be honest, I never got over him. [HyacatDuncan]
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Also, chere ami, you were always askin’ for 5 minutes alone w/Mike and those turned into hours. I suspected you had a thing ofr him and didn’t know how to deal w/it, so I stood back and bit my tongue (which hurts). WHen you hooked up so quickly after, I figured I had been right and that REALLY hurt. In the IM, it sounded like you were tryin’ to get me and J back together, even tho’ I was prego. [HyacatDuncan]
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thanx for the note, i hope that the email goes well between you and Dolly. It always hurts when you lose a friend, no matter how badly the fight may have been. hope things go well for you! take care *hugs* courtnie [Spanky’s Popsicle]
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I’m happy that you got up the courage to call her. I told you that you’d feel better if you handled the situation instead of spending more time worrying about it. It’s always better to confront the situation instead of waiting..because many things can happen while you are waiting, and someday it could be too late to take action. But in any case..good luck with working everything out. [SolarEclipse]