Belting Out EvanEssence

Where were these songs over the past two years?  God, they’re terrific!  Especially Bring Me To Life and My Immortal.  There’s another survey on Melnaie’s diary.  I might have to steal that one, too.  Lol.

You know, I can’t help wondering how much better the world would be if we didn’t hide.  If we only told others how much they mean to us.  How important they actually are, that we do in fact care.  So many of us think that the ones around us know, but really, what guarantee can there be?  There have been so many times in my life where I thought no one cared about me, and maybe if one person had stepped forward and said, “Yes, Katie, I do care,” my emotions and securities wouldn’t be in the state that they are.

I should explain why I put ‘Katie’ instead of ‘Kate.’  Until I was ten, and even now by my parents, I was called Katie.  But after I saw Mermaids when I was ten, where Christina Ricci played a ten year old girl named Kate, I decided I wanted to go as Kate, as well.

I’ve never been confident about how much I mean to a person.  Save one, I’m still not confident of how much I mean to anyone.  I always read the surveys on Melanie’s diary, and see lines about “Who do you trust the most?” or “Who are your best friends?” and she types in, “You know who you are,” or, “They know who they are.”  I have no illusions that I would fall under these categories, or any others where she writes the ‘they know who they are things,’ but I also can’t help wondering if the people who do fall under them do know.  I’m not saying that she doesn’t tell people that she cares about them.  Because she does.  Quite often.  I’m just using that as an example.  Because so many people are too shy, or too afraid, or too worried that they’ll be seen as “weak” to admit that they care about someon else.  Or else they don’t think that anyone cares back, so why put your heart out there simply to be trampled?

I think that’s what people don’t realize.  Just because you tell someone you care about them doesn’t mean your heart will be trampled.  I wish I knew how to explain this better.  I guess it goes along with that Free Love concept I talked about awhile ago.  I mean, if you care about someone, you should tell them.  What’s the use of hiding it?  No one win that way, but if someone is told they’re cared about, it can change their lives.  I know this for a fact.  I’ve seen it.  And I also can’t say enough about how much it’s meant to me to know that I matter to people.

Okay, I think I’m gonna go steal that survey off Melanie’s diary.  I’ll write more later.