Not Enough. Never Enough . . .

I’ve written a letter to him, I’ve received advice, I’ve rambled on to people who are probably sick of listening to me, and who can’t give anything accept an ear, because they simply don’t know as much about Jason as I do, yet . . .  It’s not enough.  It’s just not enough.  I can’t get this out of my system.

I HATE feeling this way.  It’s like our friendship hangs in this delicate balance that is constantly disturbed, like clockwork, once a week.  Everything is fine on Tuesday, but once we IM, everything falls apart.  I don’t want it to fall apart.  I like it when things stay together.

I mean, once again, I was disappointed, because he said last night that he’d write me an E-mail in the morning.  I somehow knew that there wouldn’t be one there.  There wasn’t.  But I was hoping he’d prove me wrong . . .

Why couldn’t he have?

–Notes–

hey hun thank’s for the note and I will diffenitly keep you in mind thank’s again you don’t kn ow how much it mean’s to me and don’t worry so much about you and jason I know I have been there before. I know you and him will be able to work it out. You and him just need time to fix your friendship. I beleave that you and him will work it out but like I said you guy’s just need time. thank’s again. [Patrick45875]
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I told you instant messagers were impersonal. In person, you can read Jason’s facial expressions and tell things from his voice..but online..it’s easier for him to hide. Just a thought. [SolarEclipse]