Knowing People Through Song

    I just have to make it through today, and then I’m on my way to Kean, where I can hang out with Jason again.  Today, I’m picking up my Dots paycheck, taking care of a couple of things, including picking up some of my “on hold” stuff from Dots.  Then, I need gas for the car, and I want to drive down to Redbank, because I want to see if they have a karaoke CD, or something, of the music from Quest for Camelot.  I want to do that one song that Garret sings for the Strawberry Festival.  That would be so awesome!!
    I’ve noticed that there are songs that will impact a person’s life in different ways during different periods of their life.  I’ve been thinking about that one lately.  I mean, back in eighth grade was when I first heard Because you Loved Me, that Celine Dion song.  And I related it to this guy that I knew back then who I thought I was in love with.  That was probably the worst song I could have heard back then, just because of the line in it that says, “I’m everything I am, because you loved me.”
    Not the greatest thing to be listening to when the person that you’re relating the song to is ignoring you and making it painfully and obviously clear that he doesn’t want you in his life, huh?
    Wow.  That entire thing is one sentence.  Lol.  Anyway.
    Other songs have impacted me in god ways, though.  I think part of the reason I got so addicted to the Beatles was because their songs were real to me.  I could relate to them, even though they probably weren’t the greatest songs to listen to back then, either.  I mean, “I’m a Loser?”  Yeah, I didn’t have self-confidence problems . . .
    And then there are songs that you listen to and it’s just like, “this reminds me of that person.”  I love songs like that because you find them, and when you relate that person to them, it can give more insight into who that person is, whether you realize it consciously or not.    I believe in psychology very strongly.  Psychological reasoning, subconscious explanations, etc.  I mean, I don’t fully buy into everything that Freud said about dreams and the Oedipus complex and all that, but other than that . . .
    I mean, I myself have realized things subconsciously and then been able to discuss it consciously.  Something will spark something else in my head, and boom! I know it.
    I’m probably not making any sense here.  I’ve been thinking on how I’ve gotten to know different people in my life so well, and why some are still a mystery to me.  Or why some are still closed off to me.
    Some, it’s the obvious answer that we don’t click.  Whatever chemistry is there for the people I am close to, isn’t present with the people I don’t click with.
    Others, one in particular that I can name, it’s intimidation.  He’s a bit older than me, so I don’t feel quite as inferior to know that he’s that much smarter than me, but his intelligence intimidates me, and makes me nervous.  Not to mention that he has a wall of defense up about a ten times stronger than Jason’s.  And let me tell you, that is one impressive feat!    But I can’t even say what has gotten me so close to someone like Jason.  He’ll tell you it’s persistence, and he’s right, in a way, but I also know that there’s more to it than that.  If persistence were all that got someone to know someone else, well, I’d be a lot closer to a lot more people.

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Hi! Freud’s theories are called Psychodynamics. Also, since you believe in some of the basics of psychodynamics but seem to modify them to your own beliefs, you would be a Neo-Freudian. Just thought you’d like to know Ciao! [Quiet Observer]
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Hey Kate. I can leave notes cuz I actually started a diary here. I’ll send a link your way soon. I definitely can relate songs to people, especially myself…I like when the song changes. Like, last year my song was “Unwell,” and “Reflection.” Now it’s “I Hope You Dance.” BTW Freudian dream theory was thrown out, and considered a pitfall in his lifetime of work…just researched it 😉 ~Jil [Jilliebean]
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I like this entry…listening to music can definitely help explain how one feels about a person. 🙂 Yeah..Thursday I should be free sometime in the evening. I have to take the car for an oil change in the morning though. [SolarEclipse]