cut me up again, k?

 So I went into the ear/nose/throat doctor to get a look at my deviated septum (have never been able to breathe out of my left nostril) and so i’m scheduled for another surgery on july 11th.  not sure how i feel about it at this point…  little nervous, just because of how poorly the first one went.  plus, for some reason, the fact that i have a breathing tube (as opposed to just the nose tube things) freaks me out too…

woke up several times last night in the middle of dreams where i was cheating on my girlfriend.  i’m not the kind of person who believes that dreams ‘mean’ something, but it’s still got me sort of.. shaken..  it also lead to a shitty night of sleep on an already short night.  been up around 6 the past two days, and i’m starting to feel it pretty hard.  when i get this tired, the anxiety starts to spike again.  frustrating, for sure.

this weekend doesn’t seem like it’ll be relaxing, either.  

i’m sure i’m just blah tonight, i’ll be better tomorrow, just felt like getitng it out.

-b