ok…

 and yesterday found out that my mom’s dad, my grandfather, is in the ICU, on a ventilator, fully sedated, and wont make it through the week.

grateful for the people i have supporting me, but more than a little irked at two of my best friends who haven’t checked in whatsoever.  they knew i was having the picc line, knew i was freaking about it.  i tweeted about how horribly the treatment was going at first, tweeted about the grandpa stuff, and nothing, from two of the people i’d figure would give a shit.  just pictures and tweets about how much fun they’re having on their vacation in miami.  every few hours, since friday.  needless to say, i unfollowed them for a while, it just made me so damn angry.  i understand vacations are supposed to be relaxing, but the impact that could have been made by a 15-second text message?  if it had been a "hey, im sort of keeping the phone in the pocket" thing, i would have totally understood.  but "wow, look at the sunny view" or "wow, look at all the cool places im eating" or "wow, off on a cruise!" just didn’t strike right.

nope, writing this out didn’t help, still pissed.