livid.

livid is the only word that comes to mind right now.  abso-fucking-lutely raging.  i can’t win.  i don’t get to win.  whatever i do for people, whatever i do to try and ease things or smooth things or whatever it might be, it doesn’t do a fuckdamnbit of good.  honestly no clue why i keep trying.

i can’t even fucking TALK to my friend without some fucking big red flag going up?  are you kidding me?

i’ve been on your side this whole time, kid.  i’ve fought for you behind the scenes, i’ve tried to keep my distance, keep my nose out of your business, keep everyone calm and whatnot with their life, and if you’re going to take any of that as anything sinister or threatening or whatever, you can go fuck yourself.  i’m done being an invisible hand for you.  you’re on your own, kid.

fuck that.