12/02/2009

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It’s been tough to want to write. First of all, things don’t change much around here. Second of all, I’m just not happy with our situation, but I don’t want to dwell on it, and I don’t much want to talk about it, because I don’t want people thinking I am feeling sorry for myself, looking for a handout, or complaining too much. I also get tired of being judged. I don’t need that. Also, I just really enjoy being on Facebook, and since I tend to live there these days, I don’t do much of anything else, even checking or answering emails which I used to do all the time. I did spend a majority of my time last week off the computer, cleaning. And of course, there is always school. School is both the most rewarding, and the most frustrating thing I do.

I wrote most of this yesterday. This computer is frustrating, so I am going to save and restart, and I guess I’ll do a new entry (assuming I remember to come back!)

Dazed Dahlia

December 2, 2009

I just got over a phase of spending most of my computer time on Facebook or Myspace apps rather than coming to OD or checking my email or participating in the online support groups I run. Sometimes, you just need a break filled with mindless activity. However, I don’t think you should ever not write in YOUR diary because you are afraid of being judged! NOBODY has the right to judge you EVER. It is your diary, you are supposed to be able to write what you want, scream if you want, cry if you want, bitch if you want. Do not censor yourself for anyone here my dear; that defeats the purpose of a diary. Turn off notes if you have to, or simply quote me on every entry so they know judgmental comments are not allowed or appropriate!