Just not in the mood

I haven’t been in the mood to write.  I spend lots of time on Facebook, a little time out shopping, and exercise here and there, but one thing I am just not in the mood for is this place.  I don’t know or understand why.  I don’t scrapbook…would like to, but I don’t.  I have branched out the number of games I play, from FarmVille and Farm Town to Age of Castles, Fish World and Lil Farm Life (which I hardly play at all cause it’s just like the others, and they’re just better)  Of course, we are doing school each and every day, and Sydni continues to frustrate.  I can’t help but wonder, WHAT was she learning?  Then I remember, she was very nearly a year behind, and I feel pretty certain that this year she WOULD have gotten held back.  But who knows?  I’ve thought that the last two years as she falls farther and farther behind in her testing, so who really knows?  Shabree is doing well, Becca is doing well, Syd… not so much.

Other than that… just not much to report.  I’m NOT getting enough sleep, never ever.  I’ve been reading the True Blood books (aka the Sookie Stackhouse novels) and have been just riveted to them, and I managed to read 5 or 6 of the books in the last week and a half, finishing off number 8 last night in a marathon session.  I didn’t get number 7 from Jane, who lent the lot of them to me, and I don’t believe she has the just released number 9, so those are the two I have to get my hands on to read. 

Jerry still hasn’t closed a deal.  God knows when, I do not.  As far as I know, he is not actually looking for a job to replace this… whatever it is that he does (I understand it, but he’d really rather I didn’t speak of it.  At all.  Ever.  So I won’t)

My weight is holding mostly steady at around 198, despite the fact that just about every day I have some sort of food I probably shouldn’t, an ice cream or a brownie bite.  I’m pretty careful otherwise not to overeat too much. 

I’m ready for change.  I’m ready for things to just get better.  I’m ready for a life improvement.  Sigh.  Feel like I have a full time job homeschooling the kids, and it is.  Especially since Syd is often doing her school work til 5 or 6, which is just frustrating.  Yesterday, she PROMISED she’d do her math if I let her go with me up to Galt then to Lodi, and she didn’t… though she did get it done when we got home.  I should have had her do some today, but she and Shabree did a bang-up job cleaning out the school room.  Mostly it was Sydni, but Shabree helped.  It looks awesome.  Syd… she’s not going to be a scholar when she grows up, but she’ll make someone a really good wife and mother.

I’m going to bed… SO exhuasted.