Please hold a thought for us…

Jerry is supposed to be closing a deal on Monday… he’s being told that it’s approved, and all ready to go.  But as I well know, this has always been them, for lack of a better term, blowing smoke up his ass.  And by them, I mean various people and entities, not just ONE them… it always happens.  He gets to the close of a deal, and…. nothing.  A big, fat, nothing.  And I’m so SICK and TIRED of big fat nothing happening.  I am not so much of a material person.  I have learned to make do, I have learned to live with old, worn, and battered.  I’ve learned to Freecycle and accept things graciously, when offered.  I’ve learned how to give my kids a good time without spending any money.  But as many might be… I’m a tad, just a tad, tired of living like that.  Especially when I consider that at one point, I had some money to spare.  I had money to really be able to spend and not have it dent anything.  LOL, I was feeling no pain in those days, except for the pain of having to work at a business I didn’t really enjoy, though it had it’s aspects.  Hey, at least we could choose our own hours.  Jerry did the brunt of the work (as usual), but I was pretty happy to be the support person.  He’s lucky I’m not a gold digger, and I’m loyal to boot.  SO many other women would have been out of there with the way we’ve had to live.  But I’ve believed in him.  I don’t necessarily think he can actually close a deal… but I’d love to see it happen.  He’s been putting in resumes, so even if he has to get a job, that’ll be all right too. 

Anyway, I just need to be able to do the things I want to do… like I’d like to take the kids to the Monterey Bay Aquarium, and it’s 29 dollars for me (and probably Kim) and 25 for the kids!  Good grief, that’s expensive, plus the cost of the gas to get there…but what a fun, educational experience!  I’ve just seen a lot of things lately, that I’d like to DO with the kids, and much of it costs money…. that I don’t have!  So yea… just say a prayer/ think of us/ wish us well, if you would please.  I don’t need a lot… just more than we have.

You know… I have TWO video cameras.  Both are pretty nice, though the one is probably 8-10 years old, which is QUITE old in terms of technology, but I wonder if I should sell it, all the same.  They’re both digital video, and take DV tapes.

Did it AGAIN.  Left, and forgot about this entry.  So… off to bed for me.