03/04/2009 *Edit*

Yea, so I didn’t get to sleep until after 1, no, 2… I set my alarm for 4?  Yea, but when it went off, I ignored it…well, the baby woke up at 4:45 anyway, so I got her up, fed her, but she was halfway out of her sleeper, and I ended up having to change her into something else, because trying to put her back in it, she just wriggled herself out of it again.  She wouldn’t go back to sleep.  So I took her downstairs (trying to let Jerry sleep…sometimes I wonder if I should bother… like HE should feel some of my pain so he might have a little compassion.) and gave her a cheese stick.  When she was done with that, it was about 6 a.m. so I took her back upstairs and put her in her playpen… and of COURSE she started crying piteously.  So, I got her a 4 ounce bottle (should have made it 2), and that quieted her.  So I got to sleep until 7:30 when Jerry asked me to get the little ones dressed.  Well, since I’d just put a fresh diaper and clothes on Alex 2 hours before, I concentrated on getting myself and Sammi dressed.  Then Becca, who had late start today, wasn’t ready!  I told Jerry I was going to walk (after I’d put the kids in the car) but it was raining a little (I didn’t mind) and he didn’t want me walking in the rain, so he really quickly dropped Sammi and I off at the school 20 minutes early, then went back and got Bec, took her to school.  He almost missed Shabree’s award, but I got pictures of it.  He did miss her getting it, but all the kids were up on stage getting their pictures taken.  And Shabree came up to us, so I got a good picture of her.  I scrapbooked the last award she got, will have to do the same with this one.  She got Student of the Month, and I forget the other award… a bunch of kids got that award…oh, I remember, it was a Good Citizenship award.  Good for her.  

So after we came home, I did my best to stay up, I did some laundry, but I finally just crashed.  I nursed Alex for awhile, then put her down and slept from 11:30 to 2:30… when Sydni came home BANGING on the door!  It was locked up, and when Syd has to go to the bathroom, she doesn’t just knock, she POUNDS… oh, it ticks me off so bad.  So she got the dog to barking, and then when she came in (the phone had been ringing at the same time), she said that Shabree had left without her, she thought she was here already…. and the light began to dawn.  So I checked the phone, and sure enough, it was the school number.  I called back, and Shabree was in the office.  Well, at 6, they DO NOT want her walking home by herself (though she’s perfectly capable of doing so) so I sent Syd back.  Well, THAT made her mad, so she started yelling at me about it, stomped upstairs and slammed the door on her way out… so of course Alex woke up.  Really, I was GOING to wake her up to eat, but Syd forced my hand, and I had to get her up.  So I fed her, and then Jerry’s alarm on his old phone started going off, then I heard Sammi in her room.  So nothing was going to let them sleep… nothing.  I guess that’s all right.  It was just that Sammi hadn’t gotten much sleep last night (more than me, but she needs more than me).  Oh well, she seems fine, she’s not cranky or anything.  I put Alex down for another nap about 45 minutes ago.  The others are either at the park or the library.  Becca… WHAT is it with teenagers and a general lack of respect?  She asked for her skateboard back, I’d put it away because she’d been asked mulitple times to put it in her room, and I nearly tripped over it, so I hid it.  Well, when she asked for it, I told her give me one good reason why I should.  Just something like "Because I was the first to volunteer to do the dishes."  Just something simple.  Well, she couldn’t give me ONE reason.  Her reasons were "Because it’s MY skateboard."  "Because I ASKED for it."  REAL snotty she was, too.  I never did give her back her skateboard.  I wasn’t going to be spoken to like she was speaking to me.  I went outside to complain to Jerry about her, and she had been having the same attitude with him, asking him when they were going to the library, only saying it more like "Are we going to go already?"  Oh my GOD, that kid is going to make me lose my freaking mind!  I just keep telling myself…this too shall pass.  It may take a few years, but it will.  I just wonder what to do with her in the meantime.  I mean, even if we WERE beating parents… she’s too old for that now.  She doesn’t ACT like she’s too old though, I swear!  She’s so immature and childish sometimes!  

Wow, I just realized I almost have this entire house to myself!  Whoo! 

I found the font on the other computer I need to finish off Sammi’s book and start on Alex’s.  Assuming I can.  Assuming I want to repeat it like that.  I don’t see why NOT… but then, I was getting tired of it when I was working on Sammi’s.  But it really was intended to be just a simple week by week "show the growth" book, with simple layouts, not a whole lot of journaling.  The fact that they had a title and some stickers or decorations at ALL was sort of "above and beyond."  But then, it’s not scrapbooking if you don’t decorate, it’s just a picture album… though I gotta admit, it’s little MORE than a glorified picture album, lol.  So I gotta figure out a few things, and one is if I even NEED to go through the work of cutting more titles out, or if what I already have cut out will "suffice."  Then, I’ve got to look at the general colors of the pictures and see where I might need to do red or green for Christmas, orange for halloween… that sort of thing.  I’ll probably go with red, because it is a color I tend to put them in, though I was never given a lot of red for her, it was almost all pink.  Not a lot of purple/lavender, either.  Sigh.. I LOVE purple, and a lot of Shabree’s layouts were purple.  Of course, as a result, I DO have a plethora of pink embellishments.  I don’t remember what colors Sammi wore.  I have SO many pictures of Alex to choose from… woah.  I mean, I’m glad in the sense that I don’t have to pick from crappy pictures because that’s all I have…but the opposite problem is how do you choose which pictures to use?  I guess I should print the pictures, then see what I want to match them up with…  you know what?  Looking through Sammi’s book, it barely mattered if the pictures matched my background.  I’m just going to go with the whole "glorified picture book" concept there, because really, it IS interesting to see the week by week growth.  And now that I have the punch I need that was missing for so long… well, I can attempt to finish Sammi’s week by week too, even if it will be incomplete due to a lack of pictures.  Maybe I can go back through my diary and see what I can find to document about her growth.  Put it all together for a page or two of journaling.&nb

sp; I don’t see why not.  I don’t remember saying much about Sammi though, so we’ll see what I can find.  I think I’ve had much more to say about Alex.  Well, anyway, I have something of a plan in my head, now to just follow through.  I’ve got to write down the dates for Sammi’s and Alex’s week by week.  I’ve gone this TWICE for Sammi, but I’m not sure where they’re at.  Sigh. 

Well, I’m not sure what else to do with myself right now.  I suppose I could get off the computer and start cleaning or planning some pages.  What a concept there, lol.  I think I need to make myself a list… I know it’s probably silly to make one, but it sort of helps me focus and think.  If I write down, clean the floor off, then that’s something I can do, and scratch off the list.  I don’t know if I can SAY, organize the shelves though, because, well, it won’t happen.  I COULD get rid of all the stuff from Jerry’s old phone though… that’s probably not necessary to hang on to.  LOL… I don’t have ANYTHING else to say that’s not just a sort of ramble, so I guess I will post this already.

 *Edit*

The speech pathologist for Sammi called, she’s coming next Tuesday at noon.  Should be interesting to see if Sammi will even SPEAK for the woman, lol.  She gets so doggoned shy around strangers.  It may be a few visits before she warms to the woman.  Hopefully this woman has lots of toys to get Sammi motivated with…because as Shabree’s first speech teacher told me, speech is about play.  Well, the first visit will probably be more of an "intake" just to see where we’re at.  I’ve got to clean my house!!!!  Oh good LORD.  I can’t let this woman SEE my house in the shape it’s currently in!  There’s NO way.  It’s not like it’s filthy… just cluttered to beat all.  The clothes that were brougth over for Sammi and Alex are pretty much still on the stairs in a box.  I should get them put away.  That woman did some serious clothes collecting…wow.  I need clothes for the rest of my girls now.  Jerry says we’re going to hit up Goodwill.  I’m going to attempt to get all the clothes washed in the meantime, would be nice to see how many pairs of pants Shabree can actually fit into.  Becca, however, seriously needs pants, she has one pair that fits well…everything else is either something that’s too small for me, but a tad too big for her, or somehow ripped or just not wearable… or too small.  Did I mention how much WEIGHT Becca’s gained?  I’ll make something, for instance, that has cheese in it, and without even TASTING it, she’ll add another ounce or more of cheese to it.  She’s gained a bunch of weight.

Ouch… it must me time to feed the baby, my breast hurts… whoops, sorry for the TMI there.