4/24/08

I’m having a baby shower! Please visit:

http://www.webbabyshower.com/mullen/

I really ought to be doing something else.  But I had a lot to say to someone that I read pretty often, and it got me to thinking again about our being spiritual children (of God, if you will…) and being on Earth to learn.  Make that Learn, with a capital L. 
These days I get awfully frustrated by the chant "Hand all your problems over to God, and let Him solve them." 
NO PEOPLE!!!!  How are you going to learn if you always have this expectation that God is going to do it for you?   Do you do EVERYTHING for YOUR children?  Well, sure you do…until they’re about what, 6 months, maybe a year old?  Then what do you do?  Start TEACHING them!  When I put shoes on Sammi, I always show her which shoe goes on which foot.  Okay, so a lot of the time, I put her shoes on for her.  She CAN do it herself, she’s proven it time and time again she can.  I just get in a hurry and do it for her.  But is God in a hurry? 
Me, I don’t think so, but that’s something you have to decide for yourself. 
I realize I don’t always put my thoughts in the best order, but I really do believe that God is a teacher… again, Teacher with a capital T… probably the ultimate teacher.  I do believe we are here for a reason, though I don’t fully understand what that reason is.  I thought I’d find it in the Bible, but I’m not so sure, because I’m not sure it’s ever been a question that’s been asked or answered in the Bible.  Let’s face one fact:  The Bible was written by Humans.  For the sake of not being argumentative, we’ll just say that it was God inspired.  More than likely it WAS God inspired.  I’m inspired by God all the time.  I think that we do not give enough credit to our own inspirations.  What if, just because of the nature of the Bible being written by humans, it were flawed?  I mean… when God speaks to us, we’re always filtering it.  We pretty much always add in our own life experiences, our own prejudices, our own "take" on what God is trying to tell us.  Goodness, I think it happens to the best of us, even if our intentions are pure, as they probably were with the men who wrote the Bible.  Which isn’t to say the Bible doesn’t have its place in the world… but so many people rely on it as THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH.  Well, more than that, they don’t necessarily believe that anything could ever be added to the Bible, even as we as humans mature in our spirituality, grow up, and learn more.  So I think that might be flaw number one.  WHY can’t we trust ourselves?  Why do we believe we have nothing to add?  I’ve been coming to a realization that I DO have something to add.  I feel strongly compelled to share it with the world.  It’s not an easy task to take on.  I’m just as flawed as any other human being.  I am, I know it!  I do my best to live as I feel is good for me… but I’m lazy.  Some days I go to excess.  I’m not always the best mom, much to my chagrin.  I AM flawed, I AM HUMAN.  Everyone here is, unless God has incarnated amongst us, lol.  I deviate in my thoughts from Christianity, because I believe there are too many lessons to learn for one lifetime, so I think we come back again and again until we learn the lessons.  After that, I only have a marginal clue as to what we might do.  I mean, if we become perfect, then what?  Is there such a thing as perfection?  I believe so, though I admit I only have a marginal clue as to what perfection might mean.  Again with my humanness… I often think we DON’T know God as well as we think we do.  We make an awful lot of presumptions about God, especially for never having met the… um, Being?  See?  I even think, is God actually MALE?  WHY is God male when both Female and Males exist on Earth?  Were we made in God’s image?  The Bible says we were.  Okay… I’ll accept that.  But exactly WHAT IS God’s image?  How do/can we know?  Is God human?  See… I don’t think so.  I came to a realization a long time ago, we’re not made in some physical image of God, but rather a spiritual image of God.  At least, that’s what I think.  When it comes down to it… our goal is to learn to be perfect spiritual beings. 
But then, that always begged the question of why be physical?  I don’t have a complete answer, I admit, but what I get is that it does further the spiritual lessons.  There is a need to be flesh and blood because it teaches us a lot about ourselves, others, and God.  It is part of the Ultimate Lesson, which then, all other lessons are aiming towards.  And THAT is why I think we’re spiritual children.   We’re still growing, learning, trying to understand our world. 

Well, I really have to go, as usual my thoughts get interrupted by the kids, life, etc….  and I think I’ve probably actually beaten this subject to death in my diary.  I need to get a handle on what I really want to say though, and this is a decent forum for doing it in.  I just feel like God really wants me to tell the world (well, as much of it as will read and listen to me) about this, and my first thing is, WHO THE HECK AM I to do that?  And my second thing is, I’m scared.  And my third thing is, how?   But it nags at me, and I don’t like the thought of turning God down, or disappointing God, because all my life, God has been a constant companion, a loving Friend, and I want to be my best for God.  Even if I DO fail miserably about half the time.  Thankfully, God always seems to understand.  I always feel lifted up.  And maybe that’s what I would like to get across the most.  That God is very, very patient with us all.

Anyway, I’ve GOT to go.  I’m making this a signed note entry, because if you’re going to backlash at me, I want the opportunity to respond to you ;). 

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