4/18/08

I’m having a baby shower! Please visit:

http://www.webbabyshower.com/mullen/

Not much to say today. Just playing around. Thinking about taking a nap, but it’s almost 4, and if I take a nap now, I WILL be up all night. I sort of got a decent night’s sleep, but I am often tired at this time of the day. I drank too much water right before bed, but I’ve been really dehydrated lately. So I was up and down a lot last night.

We’ve been waiting on confirmation that Jerry’s deal is going to fund, and so that’s been like trying to find something to keep one’s mind off of things. We talk about other deals he has going…or doesn’t, as the case may be with this one. It’s been a terribly boring day… and how I can even get TWO paragraphs out of it is beyond me, lol ;). Shabree played on the computer for a good hour and a half…PBS kids. It’s a good web site. She was practicing her numbers, and learning to spell some things. Oh, I finished a book…Beach Road by James Patterson and some unknown, lol. Good twist at the end, won’t ruin it for you. The twist kind of made me mad… but it WAS a surprise. A HUGE surprise. Now the girls are playing in the pool, and I’m wasting time on the computer instead of doing something productive.

Let’s see… Sammi did a cute thing last night. She was laying in one of the bean bag chairs munching on some food, so I ran to get my camera, cause I thought it was cute. Well, when I came out with the camera, she got up. I said, But I wanted to take a picture of you! And so she laid back down in the bean bag chair! Took me by surprise, but I took 4 photos, and she was then done and got up. I thought it was KIND of funny actually, but I am so… surprised by her intelligence. She knew what I wanted. She doesn’t quite have the language to tell us what SHE wants, and it’s causing a FEW behavior problems. I should probably quit punishing her, but then, I get tired of having perfectly good food thrown on the ground because I’ve handed her the wrong thing. I want her to hand it back to me, tell me No, and then point to what she DOES want. It’s hard, because I can’t really pick her up to let her really show me what she wants on a counter or on a shelf. I CAN, but it’s not easy, and lugging her around makes me breathless, so it’s not my favorite thing to do by any means. I’m worried that the hospital where I give birth won’t let me do another v-bac, and I’ll be told not to pick her up at all, and THEN what am I going to do? She’s a good kid, but she’s very persistent about being picked up and held, and I can’t sit down with her without her scrambling down… if I stand, she’ll stay in my arms for ages, not that I can do it that long (not that I could EVER do it that long) I put her on my shoulders and cart her around that way, which really works well all around, but I have to have both hands free for that. I do that when I pick up Shabree, because we have to go over to the cafeteria to get Shabree’s lunch, and Sammi wanders all over the place if allowed to walk, and it just takes forever chasing her around. So it’s easier to just put her on my shoulders and walk her wherever. Doesn’t leave me out of breath, either.

I’m going to go lay down. I’m really just exhausted for some reason. Well, duh, I know the reason. I just can’t help but feel I should NOT be this tired… though realistically, I guess I should. My sleep is so disrupted, I rarely if ever sleep more than a couple of hours straight. It’s a minor MIRACLE I can think straight, I suspect ;), Though my energy is about as low as it’s been this entire pregnancy. I had to force myself to do a layout last night. I really just wanted to skip it… but I did an easy one with a swap I had, so it only took about 45 minutes, if that, to pull together. Maybe I’ll see if I can get an ink cartridge… going somewhere would wake me up. The problem I can foresee though is that at 8 p.m. I’ll be SO exhausted that I’ll fall asleep for a "nap" You’d THINK I’d sleep through the night going to bed at 8, but it never turns out that way. I get up at 11 or so, and am up til 3 at that point. So maybe I SHOULD take a short nap NOW, and then I’ll be tired more around 1 or 2. Tomorrow, I should be able to sleep in, because I can get the girls to take care of Sammi for me.

Well, for a boring an uneventful day, that wasn’t a half bad entry. I DO love to write though… lol, in a way it’s like enjoying the sound of your own voice though… my mom or dad, or both used to tell me that they thought I liked to talk to hear the sound of my own voice. I think I’ve always just had a lot running around in my head, so at some point, instead of saying it all, I started to write it down. Though I still do my share of talking ;). I enjoy a good silence though. Now my girls… they seem to chatter NON STOP. Bec and Syd especially, because Shabree can and does have periods of silence, and I don’t think Sammi is to that point yet. In the car I’ve noticed particularly, that both of the two oldest just talk and talk and talk. I can be exhausted, nerves shot to heck, I can TELL Becca this, and she will STILL not shut up. I just tune her out rather than get upset. I know I’m more hinting, but I don’t want to hurt her feelings. I really don’t. I remember what it was like to be told I talked too much… and I know what it’s like NOT to be able to stop. I appreciated the people who’d just listen to me the most. Sometimes it’s REALLY hard though. Becca makes so many assumptions, it’s not funny. She’s got theories for everything. Sometimes I end up just talking to set her straight… but then I wonder WHY I’m doing that, when it’s just not even that important.
Eh, I don’t know… and does it really matter that much now?

I’m posting already.