Finally got a moment

I haven’t been able to get on the computer in days, not for nothing.  We packed some things up yesterday for moving, today we went furniture window shopping.  We’ll have to buy, just I guess not today.  I found a really cute cuddle chair I want, 640 dollars!  Well, that’s okay, it’s worth it.  I still haven’t gotten my rocking chair out of the corner though, will have to do that, but probably not til we move, sadly. 

Becca’s holding Samantha right now… that baby is FUSSY.  She is a very cranky baby, and has been crying a good 4 hours a day these last 3 or 4 days.  Mosstly she seems too cold, so I’ve got to learn to swaddle her.  For now I am dressing her in pj’s all the time, but her skin seems sensitive as well.  She also seems to suffer from a lot of gas.  Plus then we have a tooth, so she may be teething, and it’s just too soon.  I mean, once she gets started crying, she just can’t seem to stop.  Today, finally, she got some sleep, spent about 6 hours a sleep, which I KNOW I’m supposed to wake her up for feedings, but I just couldn’t, she needed the sleep SO badly after the last few days.  She’s been sleeping mostly okay at night, and she eats great, sometimes though, that’s the ONLY way to get her to calm down, and it leads to gas, and sometimes it seems like she just wants the comfort.  She will suck on my pinkie finger for periods of time, but then will start screaming again… the pacifier isn’t working at all.  I do have one of those bears that has the sounds of mother’s heartbeat, and that has worked wonders, along with being in motion.  I can’t really put her down, within minutes she’s awake and crying.

My parents left this morning, headed for Reno.  They’ll be there a couple of days, looking at senior housing, and told me if I am just overwhelmed, to call them, and they’ll come back.  I mean, mom has until Oct 18th or something like that off.  I think Jerry would prefer my dad’s help… mom helps with money, but we don’t really NEED that per se… dad helps with packing and fixing and such, and THAT we need help with right now.  That man hardly sat down the entire time he was here… he did laundry, he fixed the fixtures in the bathroom, he cleaned the garage, he fixed the garage door, he helped Syd with her homework (and what a relief that was to me!  He could definitely live with us, no problem)

I’ve been sort of at my wit’s end with the baby, since she cries whether you hold her or not… though if she’s not crying, and you put her down, that’s almost a sure recipe for crying.  Whether or not the co-sleeping is a good idea, it’s about all I can do to get any sleep… if she’s put in her cradle without being in a DEEP sleep, she cries inconsolably.  She just really is inconsolable.  I have to nurse her to get her to calm down.  And then we come back to the problem of SORE NIPPLES!!!  However, it’s a relief to get some sleep.  I’m still really sore from giving birth, don’t know why, would think 10 days I’d be healed up, or close to it, but I don’t seem to be…  so I just need my sleep.

Well, it sounds like dinner is about ready, so guess I will post and get off the computer.  I need to keep a record of these first days, and I just don’t have time.  I had to cry the other day, because I just didn’t want to face having all the kids, one incredibly fussy baby who won’t let me get anything done, all to myself.  Sigh.  That’ll be tomorrow… we’ll see how it goes, and whether I can handle it or not.   I told Jerry I got the short end of the mother stick, she wasn’t much help, really.  She sort of tried, but just seemed to have no clue as to what she should do. 

Well, I do need to go get dinner, so will post now.  Hopefully I can write more later… we’ll see.  I hate watching days go by without being able to do anything much productive, or even non productive, like email.