Lots happening

Well, I haven’t written in awhile, hopefully I’ll have some time to do so today.  I’ve been sleeping SO much lately, but I can’t sleep at night, and I can’t figure out why.  I had two meltdowns yesterday over the state of the house… I’ve REALLY got to get a new housekeeper to help keep my stress levels DOWN… the girls weren’t helping me at all, and instead of yelling, I just cried.  I can’t stand to bend down, I have to actualy get down on the floor to pick things up or get laundry or do anything that requires being on the floor.  So I was in the kitchen, and I could hear the girls in the front room singing and playing instead of cleaning, but I wasn’t going to yell.  However, when I went out there, I found mess EVERYWHERE, and they were all outside, and I have no idea what they were doing.  I told myself to hold it together, but it was just too late.  I started crying and got down to pick it all up.  Becca kept trying to get me to sit down, and I told her if I did that, then no one would do anything.  Shabree asked me if she had to clean, and I was so upset, I told her No, do not clean, do not be a good girl, go away.  She went to her room, crying.  I’d really hurt her feelings.  She tells me all the time she doesn’t like cleaning, and all I can tell her is none of us do.  But we can’t live like that.  So I’d sent Becca upstairs with some blankets, including my Garfield blanket, and I’d told her to put that one in my room.  I went upstairs to my room… well, on Saturday I’d been trying to re-do my scraprack, since I’d gotten a new part to it so I could add more stuff into it.  But I hadn’t finished with it, so I had all these inserts stacked on top of each other.  So when I walked into my room, they were dumped over, with the Garfield blanket lying on top of them,  and when I tried to pick them up, scrap supplies fell out, and once again, I just broke down crying.  By this time, Nancy and Brian were here with Kassandra, and Nancy came upstairs to find out what was wrong, so I was able to stop crying fairly quickly.  I realized it’d been awhile since I’d eaten, and I was trying to avoid taking a nap, because of my issues staying up til 2 and then needing constant naps during the day… I can’t wait til this pregnancy is done.  Oh with Shabree, it just seemed SO much easier.  I am HATING life right now with my emotional issues and everything that’s going on with my sleeping.  Or NOT sleeping (during the night anyway)  I don’t know what to do… it may be time to have them up the zoloft.  I think, well, I don’t know what to think. 

So, for better news, and I have NO idea why I started with yesterday instead of this, which is much bigger, and better… we found a house!  It’s about a thousand square foot bigger than this house, it’s got 5 bedrooms, 3 bonus rooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, nook, HUGE backyard, is situated in a cul-de-sac, and it’s ready to go… it’s a NEW house… the previous buyer dropped out, so the builder just wants to get rid of it, so we’re getting it for 630,000, and so long as we use their lender, we are asking for 50 thousand in credits back to improve the backyard (can we say HUGE pool???  HUGE HEATED POOL???????)   So I’m really excited, because one of the bonus room is just PERFECT for my scraproom!  It’s pretty big, so will hold a lot of tables, has a bunch of shelving and cabinets, and a little desk area, what appears to be an ethernet data drop (whoohoo!)… I think that’s everything, but it’s enough ;).  I’ll have a place to put my computers, my printer, my wishblade, my paper, my supplies, plus lots of room for tables and workspace.  And if it’s a mess, well then, I can just close the doors so no one has to see it :).  Jerry is going to take one of the other bonus rooms, in the front, for his home office, and his hope is that he can simply work from home, and not have to go into Lodi to his office.  He can pretty much work anywhere, so long as he’s not disturbed.  It doesn’t have doors right now, but we’ll get them added in, and when the doors are closed, it’s as if he’s not there, we’re not to disturb him (in fact, I said, we should probably call if we need him instead of knocking, lol, and he said yes to that), but he can have lunch with us, and dinner, and work when he needs to work.  I just have to keep the kids out of there.  I assuume he’d probably start work about 6 in the morning, though I have NO idea when he’d quit, but that’s pretty much the way it works NOW.  So it’ll be better if he’s home and we see him once in awhile, rather than in Lodi, with the extra commute time (about 30 minutes instead of the 15 it is now, so that’ll take off an hour right there!)  We’ll see how it works out, but I’m pretty sure we can make it work… I just have to keep the girls (ALL of the girls, including the baby) from going and knocking on his door for whatever reason… Sydni especially is an attention hound who would be BAD about disturbing him.  I’m not sure what I’ll do about her, she already calls him for no particular good reason, and he gets upset with her.  If they cannot keep out of there, he’ll be forced to go to Lodi… and I’m sure he’ll end up going a day or two a week anyway, but the goal is to make it convenient to work from home.

The girls just got home, and are already asking me to go in the pool, to go to the store, to do this and that and the other thing… sigh.  I get so tired of the demands sometimes.  I’m TIRED doggone it.  Bec does need medical tape for her toes though… she thinks she broke them or sprained them, and taping them together would help them heal faster.  Of course, now they’ve sat down in front of the tv… LOL, I’ll never get them out from in front of it… Shabree’s been watching it pretty much all day long… far too long, but right now she’s outside, so hopefully she’ll get some exercise.  I don’t know about the pool…I have a hard time getting in it, because it’s not heated, and it’s too cold for me… I don’t enjoy getting into it at all these days.

Hm… I should go call about the housekeeper.  I REALLY need the help.  I don’t know how much more of this I can take, I really don’t.  I have a dr’s appt tomorrow, so I guess I’d better bring up the crying spells.  And I should probably do a load of Jerry’s laundry and see about working on the scrap stuff.  I’m not sure whether or not to begin packing up… who knows if we’ll actually GET the loan on this house????  Jerry’s submitting it with just his info, so this house doesn’t show up as a debt.  It’s in my name only, though he does have one of our F.S. properties in his name as well… so we’ll see.   I certainly hope so, this will be one of the smallest deals we’ve done lately, lol… and we can go with a traditional loan instead of hard money… WOAH, what a concept!   But we have to pretty much go stated income, though we do have tax returns that show we made pretty good money, so I suppose if we had to have SOME docs, we could do that as well… Hm… I might be speaking in tongues here, lol ;)… basically, stated income is just that…we tell them how much money we make.  Docs mean we have proof of our income.  With stated income, the interest rate is usually higher, the banks of course, prefer proof of how much you make.  But stated income can be a good way to go, if you don’t mind the extra interest.  It’s not really that bad these days anyway, interest rates are still fairly low.
Good grief, I cannot believe how much of this crap I understand… I HATE it, it’s not my thing, and I certainly don’t understand much of the nitty gritty of it, but I understand the basics well enough. 
I’m ready to move.  We’ll be close to Kohl’s (a dept store), Wal Mart, my favorite scrapbook store, a bunch of restaurants, our doctor’s office… etc.  It’s a nice area, good schools… more etc.  They’re building a small community park down the street… right down the street.  That’ll be really nice. 

Well, I guess I’ll wrap up.  I am pretty sure I have more to say, but I can’t think of it now.