Name discussion

We finally got around to discussing names tonight, while at John’s Incredible Pizza.  The name that I ended up liking the most was Samantha Marie, the only problem being that her initialis would be SMM, or SM, so I dunno about THAT.  Jerry suggested Samanta Jean (my middle name), I also suggested Samantha Lee (mom’s middle name) or Samantha Diane (mom’s first name) but I’m just liking the ring of Samantha Marie about the best so far.  Jerry says he’ll like it til he thinks of something better, but I REALLY just want to have something to call her OTHER than the baby, she, or it!   I kind of wanted to call her Stephanie, but the name got tossed out like THAT.  Well, of course, my dad’s name is Stephen, but then, so is Jane’s husband, and he’s so worthless… SO worthless.  But I just love the name.  But I think I’m going to get out-voted, and I do feel Samantha is a good name.  Jerry is a Sammy Hagar fan, so he was liking calling her Sammy, lol… ;).  If this name sticks, we’ll have Sydni, Sarah, Shabree, and Sam.  There’s no way I’m calling her after either of my grandmas, they both had seriously old-fashioned names, and do you know, I can’t remember what they are right now?  Man, that is PATHETIC.  Wait!  I remember, mom’s mom was Bertha, and dad’s mom was Bernice.  And not to be rude or speak ill of the dead, but dad’s mom was a real b**ch on wheels, and I would NOT want to name my child after her anyway.  That woman had a tongue on her that could cut you to the core.  MUCH worse than my mother, but actually eerily similar.  I must say in my mother’s defense, that she’s much better now, but my grandma never stopped being mean.  She was a drunk though, and a pill addict, so I strongly suspec that was much of the problem.  However, my dad was what I’ve heard termed a "dry drunk" in that he didn’t drink, but had many of the traits of a drunk, but he was NEVER that mean.  I always thought that the reason he married my mom though was because she was so much like my grandma in her ability to put you down with a word or a withering look, or saying something like "I hate this house, I hate my life, I wish I was dead"  My mother actually said that to me more than once, usually after getting upset that the house wasn’t clean and it was mine and Chaunce’s fault.  OUCH.  Okay, so I digress…. but mom never says that kind of thing anymore, and we have a very civil, very friend and mom/daughter relationship, and my mom has even apologized for the things she’s said to me.  I am sure in the heat of the moment she was just overwhelmed, but it helps to have an apology anyway… sort of makes you feel redeemed, and it’s a shame not all parents can apologize for wha they do to their kids… I apologize to mine when I yell…seems the least I can do after making them miserable, when the problem is often mine.

Anyway, yea, I’m liking Samantha for a name, we’ll see if the Marie part sticks or not.  There’s no particular reasonn for naming her that, except we like it and it works for us.  It WOULD be nice to work some family members in though, but we’ll see.