his name is Michael, like the archangel

 not the boy in love with death. i will leave him without a name. like i left him outside my house that night.

that part of my life is over, until he can find peace with himself, i let him go.

but Michael, oh Michael.

i noticed him from across the room the moment he walked in.

his smile dissolved all of my joints.

he planned bumping into me, i know he did. and it was smiles all night.

talking forever till he asked to take me home.

and so we went.

sat in the car and talked more.

we are so diferent from one another.

drastically so.

but maybe thats in the drawing power.

i cannot lie, he is devastatingly gorgeous.

perfectly so.

i couldnt find one thing i would change.

besides the fact he is a bit more urban and rough and tumble i suppose, but maybe its just because im not used to that. im the little goth girl. long black hair with the black eyeliner and usually dark clothes and sky high black shoes haha. but he was drawn to it all. said he loves my look, im a mystery girl. hhmm….

we are meant to have a date tomorrow at some point, i dont know what to make of it.

i think i dont believe it to be much of anything because as of lately men only seem to pose an interest in me because they wanna take me home to their beds, and make me teach them a lesson.( i have literally been told that by the way) i would rather be taken home to mother.

before the bedroom anyway hha. to me that just seems like the right order of things.

i dont know, maybe im not a modern girl. they throw it all away. nothing has significance anymore.

i wish things still held deep meanings and were intricate and delicate like my heart and soul.

there has to be something like that, right?

in Louisiana? or Austrailia? Arizona?

we will see where this summer takes me.

according to my cards, a great travel awaits me, to go further than i have ever traveled in my life. and a man with brown hair and brown eyes is on the other side, we shall see. we shall see.

as for now my dear sweet, archangel Michael, i am all yours.

 

love.love