un-defined

rain has been falling so hard and heavy. i adore it. i wjust wish. i dont know. i dont like being home alone all the time. and the rain is gorgeous, and there is a leak in this glass box i call my bedroom. my ceiling is dripping.

i think i am going to go watch some old horror moving picture, and try not to have flashbacks.

how terribly sad is this. sleeping all day and spending the night alone, witha candle, a copy the bell jar, and an old movie that i have to read. with a floor that is flooding. i feel like alice in wonderland.

and sometimes, i think thats what it really is. and everything is just built around the innerworkings of my brain.

im lost down that rabbit hole.

lay back, get waterlogged… give us a kiss. 

{the drowning off ophelia}

love.love