bad bad girl

perfect song.

as of now especially.

listen to the lyrics. those are mine. all mine.

i need to be redeemed. uh-huh. i miss my fiona. i go through phases of music. and retrack them every so often. when the mood or timing is just.what i need is a good defense.

i tried something new. it damaged me physically for a day, but now all i have is a new yearning. and new mindset from a new experiance. it was so many things. but i probably am just overanalizing again. haha.

dont worry, i am not telling a soul about this one. 😉

so still no word from mister you know who. i dont want to give up… but i think i already have subconciously. evrything else is so damn wonderful right now, of course something had to weigh it down. what the eff?

well i have my orange sweater, and a tab, and some darling words pressed away in some books, and some hearts that fill with warm blood when they are around.

and pumpkin moons. and sutures on my heart.

i miss that song, cause it was ours, its been a year.

damn.

sparatic, i know. but thats where i am.

love.love