30’s not so interesting… i guess

I think I’m feeling a little blah.

I just realized that I really don’t wanna be bothered with anyone lately. I haven’t been to church in the evening on weekdays in over a month and I’ve missed 2 Sundays at church due to lexy’s accident and Quincy’s track meet. But I don’t feel an obligation whatsoever. There has been some rattling of feathers going on in church for the past 3-6 months but that’s not really bothering me. I dunno what it is. I wasn’t at all thrilled at turning 30 and I didn’t ring it in with a BANG. Couldn’t afford to if I wanted to. Maybe that’s it, maybe being broke is messing with my mojo or something. I dunno.

Lexy just went over baby daddy’s house so I get a rest for a week or so. Thank YA!

Lil Quincy will be spending the night over one of his friends house so I’ll get to enjoy these next two days.

I didn’t realize it but Quincy actually made it to finals in his race I talked about earlier this week and he made it to nationals. Yippee for him,  more hurting of the pockets for me lol. The nationals are for a week in Detroit MI or Ann Arbor I can’t remember. I simply cannot afford to go. I don’t want to go. So I think I will send Quincy up with my friend And his coach ( i trust him we are very cool).

But that same weekend our Bishop is marrying one of our members in Gatlinburg, TN. Sigh. THAT whole situation is just CRAZY but I won’t go into it. Anyways, I just really DON’T wanna go because I don’t feel like being bothered with people. AND i need my money to pay bills and get their school supplies. Big Q is all gung ho to go and doesn’t understand why I don’t wanna go. I explained that we don’t have money to do all of that but he has promised his sisters and my aunt they would go. So I might just encourage him to go with them. It’s like in his mind I’m going and in my mind I am not lol. And when my mind is made up that’s it. But I’m sure he’ll have fun lol.

Just got done with a billy blank taebo workout headed for bed. endorphins have yet to kick in lol.

Oh AND I smashed my thumb at work today cause this idiot coworker refused to help me out so I could leave early to go to lexy’s appt so my thumbnail is red, grey and purple  and sore to the touch. Okay I think I’ve whined enough.

Now that I think about it I don’t think I can directly confess to it but I think the church turmoil and politics and pride is indirectly making me a little blah and not so anxious to get to services. Yanno it can be so exhilarating to be in the service….until you enter leadership lol. Church politics , and the scizms are just a little too much for me right now. I’ll meditate on it further. I have really been reading and handling my sword very well though. 😉

 

 

~He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.~

Proverbs 25:28

 

 

There are so many people searching for truth, searching to find God and understand. Unfortunately, most of them want to know how to find peace while living in sin. They don’t want to give up their lifestyle(repentance). They want to feel good about themselves and convince themselves that God is happy with them the way they are. The "new age" preachers have come up with a formula — simply redefine God. As if we are here to just hang out and do what pleases us.

 

This is a time of separating the wheat from the chaff. Everyone will have to take a stand on one side or the other. It’s all a part of the process of the Second Coming. I pray that Christians everywhere will not fall prey to these deceiving doctrines. ~ Starting Over (od member)

 

 

~I pray the desires of my heart flow with His Will.

 

Ronnie (OD member)