Focus, Focus, Focus

Still in the zone.

The dream spoke to me about focus atleast so far from the one part of it that I have interpreted. There were lots of things going on in that dream and I’m still praying meditating and interpreting what God wants me to get out of these symbols in the dream. That book is a really good guide and help.

So as of late I have been focused, focused. Along with that focus I have recieved recognition on the job from my boss today which makes me very happy. I’ve stopped dealing with coworker and my work has been really stress free. I have my occasional workplace tragedies that might take me a while to figure out (as that is a part of my job lol),  but for the most part the flow has been pretty smooth. So work focus is really working out.

Now I’m working on focusing on my relationship with God. I’ve been reading daily 2 and 3x a day. This is a MAJOR milestone as of late because I wasn’t getting any reading or praying in at home for a while. My focus during these times has been a problem so although I have been getting back to my passion of Chasing God I still sometimes lose focus when reading and praying. So I know that practice makes perfect.

I must practice his presence to really get my focus back. It’s like exercise, when you stop for a while you have to train yourself to get back to that level of fitness, well with my prayer I was on a serious spiritual high back in August- January,  then in February my focus fell a little which turned into alot. And now I am meditating on the Lord and his word Day and Night to get back to his secret place of dwelling not just entering in and leaving back out. That is a disservice to God and to myself. It leaves me weak to do such a thing. So I must remain consistent in my relationship with him. Afterall he’s always been faithful to me right? I’ve come to learn and I knew this before but it’s when it is revealed through the Holy Spirit that it makes so much sense. The scripture says if you draw nye unto him he will draw nye unto you. We as people sometimes feel like Lord how come I can’t feel you near anymore? How come I don’t feel your presence like I used to? But sometimes the question to ask is where has my focus been? How have I conducted my life lately? Have I actually even TRIED to get in his presence or was I putting on a cloak of praise and worship and denying the power thereof? Tricking myself into thinking that I was really reaching but my heart was somewhere else? What I praising the Lord with my lips while my heart was far from him? He’s been there all along and it’s not that I couldn’t feel him or he didn’t seem near. I walked farther away to pursue my own internal needs. Which caused the seperation.

The bible that says He that loses his life for my sake shall he find it. Our Carnal and Fleshly desires can mean the difference between life and death yanno. But I just wanted to give you guys an update on where I’ve been and what’s going on with me. My focus is re-emerging and I love the changes that I’m seeing spiritually. A life of submission to the Higher Power which is Jesus can cost you alot but your eternal reward, and the relationship that you gain with God is so fulfilling.