Feeling a little bit better ****EDIT*****

First of all I want to thank you all for your very encouraging notes about my whole situation. This week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me but I can honestly say that God is really getting me through this. I actually made a public confession in church one Sunday during one of my praise and worship songs and these are the lyrics to the song that God gave me one night in prayer. I was a little apprehensive about sharing this song with the congregation because it was my secret song for me and God but he encouraged me to share it. And now I feel as if he is testing me to see whether I really meant what I said. These are the lyrics:

Lord I don’t mind be broken for you

Lord I don’t mind being uncomfortable for you

I lay down all of my ambitions for you

Lord I’m Empty and Waiting on you

Oh Holy Spirit

Have your way in me

Oh Holy Spirit

Have your way in me

Oh Holy Spirit

Have your way in me

Oh Holy Spirit

Have your way in me

 

I feel like God is really testing me to see where my faith is. I will be honest I was a little upset the day of the announcement. Yesterday I fell down on my face and prayed about it all and asked God what to do with no answers.  i applied and sent my resumes out on numerous job search websites. I have been getting offers left and right in my email from these sites so that’s a very good sign. I’ve done a couple of phone interviews as well. I applied to a company that is a perfect match and has a definite future if it falls through. So in essence,  until I have a sure thing I will go ahead and sign the offer for this new company,  BUT as soon as I’m confident in a better offer I will be gone with the wind lol. There is one thing within the offer that is really scary to me and I never knew that it was legal. They actually have in the terms to signing on that they have an at will policy where they can end employment or terminate employment at any time with no notice or possible reason and in the same light I am able to leave the company voluntarily under the same pretense. How ridiculous is that? Is that actually a law? How can you terrminate employment with a person for absolutely no reason at all with no notice? Sounds kinda sneaky to me. Anyways. I don’t plan on being there long anyways so I’m not sweating it.

In better news I feel my spirit lifting on a day to day basis. I have hope in who holds my future and I plan on praising God all the more no matter what happens in this whole situation. the job offers that I have been given are paying much more than I currently make so I see I have been very underpaid lol. The only downside to those offers is that they are contractor offers. Quincy has health insurance so that’s not a big deal especially if  I was making a decent amount of money. My only downside to all of this is that we are not going to be able to qualify for a loan on a house which we were really expecting to happen in the near future with me only being on a job for months as opposed to my former employment of 4 years. I’ll get over that though. And I know that my latter will be greater.

Speaking of my latter being greater,  I have to reply to some more emails and I’ll be sure to get back with you guys later. I love you ODer’s Really I do.

 

Yall are the greatest!

 

*******EDIT********

 Please watch this and pray. It’s time to pray ppl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PWIK8YTZS8&eurl=

This is very REAL