In the game

I need to get my head in the game. My run tonight was atrocious. I was knackered before I started, I’m back on night shifts and it’s a whole other world of tired. And I can’t switch my brain off long enough to concentrate and push myself today. I guess I’m back to being humiliated again, the whole dan and his online dating profile. As one of my friends said, he was hedging his bets, he’d made his back up plan while we were still together, and instead of just telling me he didn’t want to be with me, he acted like a complete dick, like that’s all I’m worthy of, being treated like shit, like I’m some kind of compliant little girl who’ll just accept it cos I loved him.

I deserve so much better, I’m worth so much more. I’m sick to death of boys who can’t make a damn decision, who think the grass is always greener and can’t wait to try it out at my expense. All I want is someone to be bloody decisive for a change. Be with me, or don’t be with me, but don’t bloody half arse it.

Xx