Truce

Things with dan are sorted. When I got there he was cooking tea for us. I was a bit short with him, and we made general chit chat before he said you’ve obviously got something to say, are you going to say it?

So I said essentially what I’d written here, that if he wants to see the guys that’s fine with me, just don’t arrange to see me too if it’s gonna turn into a messy one. I said that I wasn’t just going to sit at home waiting for him to beckon, either we made proper plans or he made proper plans with the boys.

He said he only had to look in my eyes to know he’d hurt me and I didn’t need to say anymore, and that he needed to apologise right there and then. Basically he said he’d got himself into bad habits when he was single of spending too much time in the pub, hanging out with the lads, so he wasn’t sat at home on his own.

I said that I understood that completely, god knows I’ve spent enough time being single myself, but that if he wanted time off with the boys all he had to do was say and I’d make other plans. He went on to say that of course he didn’t want to and he much rather wanted to be spending time with me.

He said he worried he loved me too much, that it had happened too fast. I asked him two questions – does it feel wrong, he said no, and have I ever said I was anything less that happy with the way things have happened, again he said no. And there is his answer. Yes it’s crazy fast, it’s only been a few weeks, but if you know you know. We talked about the kids the second time we met up, he said tonight that he was hoping not to be in his house for more than a few months, and when I asked him where he was going, he said he hoped we would have ‘our’ place before this year is out.

We also had a slightly weird going off on a tangent conversation where he dropped the marriage bombshell, and about how he knows some guy who is involved in the diamond business so when the time comes he’s sorted. Not if, when.

So it’s sorted. He said he didn’t want him behaving like an idiot to lead to losing me, and I said that’s why I told him he was behaving like an idiot. I think to be fair as soon as I was a bit short on the phone he knew what he’d done and what I’d have to say when I saw him.

I’m so glad.

Xx