You guys!

You guys are amazing. I think you’ve just told me things I already knew, persevere, take our time, try to get myself out of this weird headspace and stuff. The fact that you’ve taken the time to note is lovely, and reassuring.

All my friends think I’m crazy, they think having a boyfriend who is well endowed is nothing to complain about. They’ve also asked me if I have problems getting my diamond shoes to fit and if my wallet is too small for my fifties. Which is why I can’t seriously talk to them about this, they don’t understand that it’s actually a problem that we’re having, they assume I’m being dramatic about it.

Dan has been reading online forums, I think he’s completely freaked out, it seems it’s been an issue before and it’s broken up relationships that he’s been in. Obviously the thought of hurting me isn’t appealing to him either. My mantra throughout is that we just persevere, it’ll be fine in the end, it’s just going to take time, and it’s absolutely not something I’d break up with him over. Ultimately, we both want things to work so we keep trying. It was better this morning than the time before, I think maybe I need a couple of glasses of wine to completely relax me and see how things go then.

Obviously the pain isn’t psychological but if it’s a result of me stressing about it hurting and not relaxing, then that’s not going to help matters. Dan’s cooking tea tonight so fingers crossed a nice tea, a couple of glasses of wine, and some quality time together will improve things.

And I promise, this will be the last penis entry for a while!

Xx