Back on my grind

I am so bored right now, and with life in general. I’m so bored, I can’t even seem to get motivated to clean out this office since today is my last day here. I’m just ready to go hoooommmeeee! Then next week I’ll scream saying I’m just ready to work again!!!

This is a very scary time. I will have zero income coming in after today. I already told myself that tomorrow I will send out double the amount of resumes I have been sending out, and Thursday I will go to the mall to apply for positions. Retail ins’t my thing, I’m not good at it. Buy what you want, and if you don’t want to, cool, lataz. I’m sooo not a great salesperson. However, I have seen some positions available for cosmetic sales, so I’ve applied for those. I can push makeup on anyone lol. I just love it so much!

I just want stability, but I’m not stupid, I know I’m not the only one. This one company emailed me to say that unfortunately, they could not review my resume because they had received over 600 applications, and were completely overwhelmed. They hired a temp for the position for the time being. Everyone is fighting to get a job, or find a job with better security. The one great thing I have on my side is Jesus. I know he knows exactly what I’m going through right now and what I need, so I’m just praying to him continuously, giving him thanks, the honor, and the glory. I know he’ll bail me out like always, but this time, I’m determined to stay bailed out.

I have a family. That’s the biggest thing on my mind. If it were just me, my hustle wouldn’t be as hard as it is right now, but it isn’t just me. I don’t want to stress J out with being the sole provider so early in our marriage. I know he knew my situation before he married me, but I’m the type of woman that likes to carry her own weight. I don’t ever want to be a SAHW, and if I’m ever a SAHM, it will only be during the childrens daycare years because I would prefer to raise them instead of letting daycare do that. Even if we can live off of just his salary, I know it will put us in a better position if there are two incomes coming in instead of one.

In other news, I bring my child home tonight, Pepper lol. He’s been staying with my mom since the wedding because I didn’t want to move him into J’s apartment in VA when we were going to move into the new apartment in DC just 2 weeks later. So, since I will be home starting tomorrow, I’m bringing him to DC tonight, and that’s a good thing. My mom said he’s been crying and whining, and I think that’s because he feels confused and abandoned. I go stay with her on the weekends because Jonathan works, but then I leave, and he doesn’t get it. Poor baby.

Well, I’m off to motivate myself to clean this office, and prepare to pick up the kitty, then cook dinner. We’re have chicken tender strips on a bed of caesar salad. Hope it’s yummy lol.

God Speed,
Reina