Something I Never Thought I’d Do

 

Quote of the day:

"Does the thought you are now thinking take you where you want to go? If not, what thought would?" 

~Gregg Levoy

 

This past weekend was nothing short of fabulous. I woke up early Friday morning to do something that I hate doing – fly. My dad and I headed over to my Pastors house, who was already on her way to the airport with some fellow parishioners, in order to park his truck and catch a ride with The Prices, her neighbors, and church members. At 9am we boarded a plane to Detroit and were off to see Jermaine and his future wife get married.

 

It was interesting. I didn’t really know how to feel about him getting married. I mean honestly, how should one feel when an ex gets married and is blissfully happy with his fiancé? It made me overanalyze AGAIN about where I went wrong and if I was unfair, etc. etc. But like always, I talk myself off of that cliff because the truth is, although I loved him, I don’t love him anymore, and even though it didn’t work out, I’m happy. He was not for me. I knew that when I broke up with him because that’s the reason I broke up with him. I didn’t realize until late in our relationship that I was trying to make him into somebody he wasn’t, and make the relationship into something it was never going to be. Thanks to my relationship with him, I learned that marriage was on my radar, and that I was open to it. It was even (so obviously) becoming something I desired. Our relationship was really miserable towards the end, and I didn’t want that for him or myself, so I let it go. He was heartbroken for some time, and it made me feel bad, but I knew I had to do it. Then his fiancé came along and I saw a new light in him. I’m not going to sit here and act like I didn’t say to myself “who is that making him light up like a light bulb???” because I did. But after a week of asking that, my questioning turned into happiness and joy for him. I met her and she was so sweet she gave me a tooth ache! with an infectious laugh, and peaceful personality. She was so made for him, and he for her!!!

 

Anyway, the weekend was great. Great fellowshipping, great food, great people, and a beautiful wedding! I even got to watch the sunrise while in the plane on the way back. God is good.

 

I immediately went to bed when I got because I was exhausted, but when my mom got back from church, she made me go to the furniture store with her. After going to the furniture store I saw a Jareds and decided I wanted to go in. There was this still peace about it that was weird, but I felt very lead to do it. My mother and I went to look at the wedding bands and I said “that’s it. That’s the one”. I saw the perfect wedding band for Jonathan. Simple, elegant, white gold with one stone. But then my mom asked how much it was for the one with three stones, and it was just $100 more, so I went for it. OMG, I bought a wedding band! Who would’ve ever thought that I would buy a wedding band??? Doesn’t that sound crazy??? Me, the girl that never wanted to get married bought a boy a wedding band lol. Craziness I tell ya! Anywhoody, they had a St. Judes bear for sale too, so I bought him a bear to go with the ring.

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I called him to tell him I missed him and that he should come over. He eventually did and I told him I had a present for him. I had put the box in the arms of the bear, and Jonathan thought it was just an empty box the bear was carrying until I alerted him to the fact that it was a real gift. He opened and said “La Dale, what’s this??? What’s this La Dale???” I said it’s your ring! And his jaw hit the floor. He loved it. Absolutely loved it. We spent the rest of the night laughing and canoodling.

 

Next week I do something else I’ve never done. I go with Jonathan to Macys to pick out stuff for our gift registry. This whole wedding deal is a trip. A million ups and downs, but everything seems to work itself out in the end.

 

God Speed,

Future Mrs. Johnson