Mad as hell *EDIT* calmer now

I wish I’d hurry up and fucking DIE. I can’t live like this anymore. My wife says she has a headache that’s radiating through her jaw and chest. She is "hot", because it’s not 42 below 0, and I’m just stuck with nobody giving a goddamned rat’s ASS what I feel like, how I am doing, nothing. 

She wants me to take her to the hospital, which means she wants her fucking FIX. I think I am going to take myself out of all this. I can’t do it anymore.

Fucking dope-head.

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We called an ambulance for her, because she was too dizzy and weak to get down the stairs. I feel bad now, because something happened in the room earlier (bodily function) that made me realize that something actually IS wrong, this time. Being married to an addict is trying. I feel like I’m ALWAYS WRONG.