One question I wish I could ask God directly

This is not meant in a critical way.  I’m only curious.

God, why did you skip me when you were giving out children who needed to be raised?  I got mine grown, and I’m not complaining about them one bit.  I’m just really curious.  It leaves a lot of room to doubt myself.  Was I not capable of bringing up a baby?  Would I have messed up a child, somehow?  Is it somehow a bad reflection on me?

That’s all I want to know.  I see people with children, and I wonder why they have them, because they don’t appreciate them the way I know I would.  I’m not claiming to be any better than anyone…just more astute, maybe.  I know what gifts people are to other people.  And so many people say things like, "I can’t wait til you grow up and move out of my house!"  

I don’t get it.  I would not have done that.  When my daughter DID move out of my house, I had severe withdrawals.

And I only had her in my house a year.  

Maybe I will eventually realize why it has happened the way it has.  Maybe not.  If not, I guess it’s just not meant for me to understand.

Thank you for my girls, God.

Herm