It hurts so much…
In the picture above, from left to right:
top: Laurie/Mikey, Mama, Me, and MH.
bottom: Alex, Memaw, and Juli.
It hurts so badly losing Memaw. We just lost Nanny five months ago, and now my other grandmother has died, too. I don’t have any grandparents anymore, and that really really HURTS. She’s only been gone about 13 1/2 hours, so it’s still fresh and new and INTENSE. My heart feels shattered. So much of my life revolved around making plans to spend time with my only remaining grandparent, and now what do I do?
I’m happy for her, though. She is with a lot of family who left us through the years. She wanted to hang in to 100, but that just wasn’t meant to be.
I miss her SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!!!!!!!!!
I told Laurie yesterday that when Memaw’s time came, we should leave this town and maybe even the state….I never DREAMED she’d be gone the very next day. She went to the hospital, but Memaw always healed from everything so quickly and easily, even well into her 80s. She was developing pneumonia in her left lung. It didn’t kill her, though. I guess she just wore out. She went to sleep, and at about 7am this morning, she just stopped breathing.
I won’t ask why. I will cry, though. I will miss her. I will ALWAYS remember and love her.
Memaw, I love you so very much! I know you’ll be watching over me, and I’m so thankful to have had you in my life for the first 36 years of it.
Losing a loved one is never easy. I’ve lost my birth mother and my adoptive mother. But I’m comforted by knowing they are still with me in spirit. Since I lost my birth mother, I’ve always believed that heaven is not just up above, but everywhere, and especially inside us all. Your grandmother is in heaven, and she’s in your heart. Get the connection? 😉 She’ll always be with you. smile for her 🙂
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maybe its a sign that its time to leave there now?
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Feel blessed that you them in your life for so long, I lost both my grandmothers within a month of each other when I was 19. I wish they could have seen me go to college, get married etc. She’ll always be with you and you with her and you’ll see her again one day.
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the fact that you said that a day before she passed could mean a couple of things, like your spirit knew it was her time and was telling you in any way it could, and that maybe it IS time to leave. i know youll make the right decision and even though were only virtual friends, we will stand behind you. <3
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I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong for your Memaw, she’s in an awesome place now. xoxo
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I remember losing my last grandparent,I was only 8. Whats this about leaving that area? Giant hugssssss.
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Found your note randomly. my friend has just been through the same thing. I’m so sorry to hear about it. take care
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