Stumbling block – Craving City edit

My Mikey, I love you

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I didn’t smoke, though! Thank GOD we’d bought some nicotine lozenges and never used them. I cut one in half, so that it was only 2mg, and took the half lozenge. It took away my craving, and I’m okay now.

Was that cheating? I wanted to be completely nicotine free, not just a non-smoker. Well, can’t have everything, right? (Why NOT?!!! lol)

I’m still a non-smoker, and I’m quite proud of myself, in spite of this morning’s challenge. I’m happy and proud that I didn’t cave in and smoke my way out of a craving. That would’ve totally undone ALL the time without a smoke!!!!!

It’s only 6:15am. I couldn’t sleep, so I’m still up. I suppose I’ll stay up until Elisabeth goes for the bus. I think she’s in the shower now.

Alex sent me an email yesterday saying he was proud of me (followed by a HUGE grinning face) and he loves me. That was the best reward I could get for quitting smoking. Now I’m even more committed to STAYING smoke-free, because I can’t bear the thought of making one of my babies ashamed of me.

Life is good.

Love to all,

Jack

***Edit***

The same morning I typed this entry, Juli sent me an email saying she is happy I quit smoking. Those two emails were the greatest things I have gotten from anyone lately!