5:50am, and how long have I been awake?

My Mikey, I love you

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As our younger daughter would probably say, "A hecka long time". I’m still not sure I’ve got this "Hella/Hecka" thing down pat. Oh well.

Things are going pretty well. It is Mama and Wayne’s 16th Anniversary today, so I must phone Mama and tell her Happy Anniversary and to deliver the message to Butthead Wayne, too.

I can’t believe that man has been my parental figure for so damned long! Then, tomorrow, he turns 59. Tevin also will turn 13 tomorrow. I haven’t seen Tevin in quite a long time, and I miss him. He was the first child I actually seriously helped raise pretty full-time for the first year and a half of his life. We bonded quite nicely, and that’s never changed, so far. I hope all these last few years without seeing him hasn’t changed things. I will call him, though. Never do I NOT think of him on New Year’s Eve, especially.

I had a crazy dream that my cousin Nisa called me from Florida and said I wouldn’t let Tony and Vicky (Tevin’s parents) come visit me, so she had to call for them. I told her that I had never said they couldn’t visit me. I wonder if maybe that was some kind of signal or something. I have no real urge to see Tony….long, twisted history….but I would love to see Vicky and the kids.

What really confused me is that Vicky and Tony have been divorced since 2000, I think. I have no clue why they were together in my dream.

I have been awake since about 3am, I think. Drives me crazy! I took some sleeping medicine. Whenever I take that stuff, I sleep for two or three hours and then I’m wide-ass awake!!!!

Henry is getting on my nerves. He wants to jump up on my lap and cuddle, but when he gets comfy, I feel bad for having to move him, but I HAVE to move him around a few times, because my stupid legs are hurting again! Damned tornado weather set in today. I hate that.

Anyway, I’m a little on the manic side, so I’ll wrap this up before I ramble until next New Year’s!

Love to all,

Jack