Smoking issue

 

My Mikey, I love you

∞ • π³ + 1

 

Ok, I’m getting tired of my lack of ability to breathe properly.  I’m also rather tired of my dependence upon tobacco, because that’s what causes my breathing problems.

 

Does anyone know a technique by which I can teach myself to hate cigarettes without hating myself for smoking them?  Also, it’s important to me that I not hate them enough to put other people down for smoking.  I hate the way some non-smokers and former-smokers get all self-righteous about smokers.  Drives me nuts!  (And – get this – Tiffany is one of them!!!!!!)

Seriously, though.  This apparent asthmatic condition is really wreaking havoc upon our life.  I can’t DO anything at all for more than about two minutes without being ready to pass out.  The only thing that helps, without prescription, is the ephedrine.  That doesn’t sit well with me, either, even though I’m not taking it out of "want" anymore.  Merely because it will help me breathe nowadays, I take it…WHEN I HAVE IT!!!!  I don’t have any right now, though, and Nanny keeps harping me about mowing her lawn again.

I have no way to get over there, besides walking.  Walking across town would really hurt me, physically, without any medicinal help.  If I had the shit, I’d walk over there and mow her damned lawn.  After all, my lawn mower is over there already!

Maybe I can weasel my way into hitching a ride to GET some ephedrine.

I feel like such a loser.

But I’m a loser with style, damnit!  Envy me!

lol

Love,

 

Jack