6/4/06 *Updated a little*
My Mikey, I love you
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Today has been beyond description, really. I woke up feeling pretty good, but that ended in a fucking hurry. MH had called, bearing news that Nanny said since I said I wouldn’t mow her lawn, she won’t help us anymore. That’s NOT what I told her, but fuck her. I’m tired of wasting time worrying about what some forgetful, hateful old bitch thinks about me. I don’t even care what anyone thinks about me because of what she tells them, at least not right now.
Our car is dead on a grocery store parking lot. Tiffany called this morning, too, saying that Naomi has a fever, and she needed some money to buy some Motrin for Naomi.
That’s why we were at the store to begin with. It was the WRONG store. We couldn’t MoneyGram from that store, so we went outside to get in the car and go to a place that we COULD MoneyGram from….the car won’t start. It won’t even TRY to start. It’s as if the starter is out on the car or something. It isn’t, probably, but that’s what it’s acting like.
Mama wouldn’t come in and help us, of course, so I’m pissed about that. We’re not important enough for consideration, as fucking usual.
I hate my life, and I wish I could just die and be done with it.
I don’t WANT to die, goddamnit. People make my life unbearable, though. I can’t even cry without getting someone mad at me.
Fuck life. I hope it’s over soon.
Oscar
Since I wrote the above spiel, I’ve paid the electric bill, so I feel somewhat better about myself. Next step, water bill. Then, we’re free of worry about bills for the month.
Now to get the car running again.
Mama’s coming to get me to go see Memaw within the next half hour. It’s 2:54pm our time.
Ta friggin’ ta,
O
Sorry to hear about the car and the Nanny stituation. When I wrote my last entry, I thought all was well with you guys. I spoke too damn soon. Glad you got the light bill paid. That always helps. Let me know how Naomi is doing.
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I hope Naomi feels better soon, and that things get better for you too. I think you should just ignore MH and what she says about Nanny. It sounds to me like she just wants to start something. If you ignore what she says, then you win. I know, it shouldn’t be about winning, but sometimes, people make it that way. I suggest checking the battery. I used to have a car that the battery wasn’t….
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properly connected on, and that would make it just die completely. Everyone thought it was the starter, but I put a bit of electrical tape on the wire to the battery to hold it there, and it was fine. As for crying, everyone has weak moments. I cry in the shower, that way no one sees or hears. I don’t want to ruin my image by crying. 😛 Lots of hugs to you and Mikey,
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