I need to take away that power
My Mikey, I love you
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I don’t know how in the world I ever managed to give Nanny so much control over MY emotions, but she has it, and I need to take away that power.
I just got back from lunch with Nanny and Mama, and I’m so not ready to deal with life right now. It’s sad that visiting her can wear me out the way it does, sometimes.
Today, the bat was going on about how broke she is, how she’s going to help MH out again, because MH has to pay her bills. Does she not think that this might just hurt my feelings a little? She ALWAYS helps MH, and so often, we do without, while Nanny blatantly discusses throwing thousands of dollars my sister’s way right in front of me. Not only that, but I’m usually the one who transports it to the bank for my sister.
Not that I begrudge my sister the help. I don’t. She has two children to take care of, and I don’t want my babies to go without. I DO begrudge having to constantly hear about "poor Mary Helen" from Nanny, though. What about us?
Yes, I’m jealous. No, I wouldn’t take it away from my sister.
Why am I so invisible?
Betty Fucked-up Louise
I know she doesn’t help you as much as she used to help baby..Because her insane belief that if she helps me she has done the wrong thing Mikey
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Maybe she wants you to realize how good you have it and that’s why she says it
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You’re not invisible Betty. Most definitely not to me, and I’m sure not to Nanny either, she just greases the squeaky wheel, and your just not squeaking loud enough for her to hear. Lots of love to you sweetie. If I could, I would send you whatever you needed, no payback required. Because that’s what family does. Unfortunately, things have been tight for us too right now. Lots of love, John
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A bit of a suggestion, so that maybe you can feel better. First of all, tell Nanny that it hurts you that she always has enough cash for your sister, but never for you. Hey, at least your sister has a job right? I mean to do that in a nice way. Nanny’s probably just blind to the fact that she ignores you. Second, don’t take the money to the bank. Period. Just don’t do it, if Mary Helen needs…
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the money so damn bad, she can go and get it from Nanny herself, she should be visiting her Nanny anyways just to thank her for all she’s done. I know it may seem mean not to do an errand for your Nanny, but it’s a pointless errand anyways. Just learn to say no Betty, and that will take away all of Nanny’s power. Lots of love to you and Mikey!
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PS. I can relate, my mother told me that I couldn’t get my license unless I bought a car. She bought my sister her first car. Thankfully, my mother’s tried to recitify things a be more fair now. Of course we don’t need it the same way anymore, but better late then never I guess. Lots of hugs,
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