Troublemaker edited later by Oscar

My Mikey, I love you

∞ • π³ + 1

But you should not love me, because I cause problems for other people. Jack talks too much. Don’t seem to realize if he would leave well enough alone sometimes that things would be better. Nobody fight. Nobody mad. Nobody anything.

Don’t mean to be a troublemaker, just happens. I am sorry, Mikey. I am sorry John and David. I am sorry, Lola. I am sorry, Harpo.

I am sorry everyone.

Hell no, honey, this is NOT going to be the way today goes. Louis, you are officially banned from running the roost today. It’s a happy day, and you are not feeling so happy right now, so you can’t come out and play unless you promise to be happy, k?

As for our causing problems. Nuh uh, I won’t have this self-blame shit. Yes, we could be more selective with what we discuss with others, but the outcome could always be any number of things from ANY discussion, so it’s not as if we tried to start a fight. I don’t even know if we DID trigger one!!!!

"Own your own problems" is the motto, babes, and today, if it kills me, that will be our practice. It better not kill me, though, because I ain’t ready to go just yet.

Oscar

lolamae

May 21, 2006

You go Oscar. And you did not have to tell me you are sorry. We all let things slip. It is in our nature.

Phoenix poet

Hun, that had nothing to do with you at all! It was completely between David and I. He’s been asking for a long time now why I don’t just put a picture of myself up…and I just kept saying no. I just wanted him to understand that it’s more complicated than just about the way I look. No beating yourself up okay? Honestly, we’d both be lost without you and Mikey to talk to about things.

I guess I should have said that in the entry, huh? David had said something yesterday (and all week really) about me having no reason to not want my picture up, and a few other things. That’s what we had to talk about. Listen to Oscar, he knows what he’s talking about! Lots of love to you and Mikey, John

PS. We didn’t fight about it. I just had to explain. John

david.

It wasn’t bad, and you didn’t cause anything. It was just my horrible memory. Sometimes I forget that things haven’t always been the way they are now. No feeling bad on your birthday! Lots of love to you and Mikey, david.