It creeps in, no matter

No matter how hard we try, sadness seems to creep in around the edges. I was just thinking about when we go to lunch today, and that made me realize that Nanny may be either very nice or very mean. It is always an unknown with a person suffering from Senile Dementia.

Sometimes, she is so sweet, and my heart hurts for the hard feelings we bear in our heart. Sometimes, however, when she is mean, Piers or Oscar come out and WANT her to suffer. I know this is not right. Afterwards, they know that, as well. That does not help in the moment, though. During the heated moments, rage seems perfectly fine. It is the price that we pay afterward that bothers them the most. Also, they wonder what damage they may have done to Nanny. Even though she seems indomitable, she is, after all, still human. She does, after all, still have feelings.

I am sad for my grandmother. May God bless her, and may He have mercy enough to take her home before her suffering mounts too high for her to bear.

In love,

Barbara Jean

Mangocitrus

March 27, 2006

*hugs*

lolamae

I will offer hugs like the last noter.

behavior but is too damn proud to admit it. When my dad’s mind began to go, I found it difficult to call him. Now I am not calling my mom’s mother because she has started to lose it. I really cannot give any advice, but to say hang in there and try to remember your Nanny for how she was before old age crept in and started making her confused.

Nanny is lucky for having you as a grandson and I know that you are more mad at this senile dementia than you are at her. I begged off on going to lunch because you have told me how Nanny was when she was younger. I respect her because she had a child alone and raised him. She did not care what others said about her. I think she is still amazing but hampered by this condition.

I know she can be mean at times. That has to be hard to take. Ed Haynes got a mean streak at the end and could be cruel. But like your Nanny he would go to hell and back to defend a loved one. Both of them have been a paradox or an enigma at times.