Thursday EDIT

Again, I am the one who writes, because I am the one who does most of the living the last few days.

I am depressed again. Not about last night. We got that worked out, Mama and me. I told her I was hurt by her expectation that I would be quiet in a public place just so her husband, my step-dad, would not hear me and say anything bad about me. I can more understand it at her house, but in a public place, where I have every bit as much RIGHT to be as she does or he does?!!!!

We are still without electricity in our house. I have been working on a friend’s computer the last two days, but I cannot right now because we left all the necessary cd’s out at Mama’s house. I have to run like a goddamned fugitive whenever it is time to come into town, so that my step-father doesn’t know I was in "his" house while he was out on the road.

So at lunch today…..

Nanny was fairly nice until Mama left. Then, Nanny started talking about how nobody respected my mother after my father died, because Wayne (the step-father) came back into Mama’s life after only two months, although Nanny swears it was just a matter of days. Nanny is full of shit, and I told her. She mentioned that Wayne had been back in town and nobody told her about it. I told her it was none of her damned business. If my mother didn’t wait however long anyone else thought she should wait before dating anyone, then they could dig a hole and jump in it. It was not they who had to live without the person they assumed they’d spend the rest of their lives with. It was my mother who was a bereaved spouse, not anyone else. Nanny can just back off, and I told her that I will say that to anyone who talks badly of my mother.

I told Nanny that Mama didn’t do anything wrong. Daddy was DEAD!!!!! She didn’t cheat on him, so Nanny is wrong for judging my mother. Especially so because she dated my grandfather while he was still married to his first wife!!!!!!

There’s decency! (I say with a hateful sarcasm, of course.)

Life is not swimmingly moving along, and I don’t know what we’re supposed to do, exactly, to correct the situation.

By the way, I think Elisabeth is on marijuana or some kind of drug. I know Mikey will argue the hell out of that, but I have firm reason to believe it. She lied to her mother last night about something, and that helped convince me.

I’ll explain later. We have to go get Martha’s grandkids now.

As always, we spoke a little soon, you know?

It winds up that I finished Darlene’s computer, gave it back to her, and she paid me a small fee I had suggested plus some. In addition, Mary Helen has offered to let us put new electric service in her name at our house. I have to think…..DirectEnergy, for sure….MH would probably pass the credit check, and they would not require a deposit!

Life is very mysterious. It moves from incredible highs to devastating lows and back to the highs again. How odd….just like I am, actually.

Anyway…..

News is depressing. Seven children were killed in an automobile crash, and then their grandfather died from a heart attack. That poor lady…losing her kids and her father, I presume. It COULD have been her husband’s father, I guess….not sure.

Now, I see that there is a young wife who was beaten to death in Oak Cliff. I hate Oak Cliff, anyway, so that’s just one more reason to stay away from it.

Mama’s nagging me about cleaning houses, so I have to wrap this entry up.

My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack